Sigh...... Lots on my mind lately. Too much to be honest. I actually typed up a blog yesterday and the day before but didn't post them because I was focusing too much on the negative. After reading I was annoyed with myself! So I totally understand if you don't even read my whole blog ;-D!
I let my self get to these points of overstressing. I know I can stay positive and get through the day not over thinking things, trusting myself and having faith that everything will workout one way or another. And yet I find that I constantly fall into this negative mindset that leads me to overstress and or even to anxiety attacks. Witch is NOT good. The mind is such a powerful thing. Where we keep our thoughts controls so much of our life! I have come to learn this the hard way.
DELETED a bunch of stuff here..... It was too personal and too sappy. I was teary eyed typing so I knew I couldn't post this with all of that in it.
Instead I will just focus on some positives to the negatives.
Yes hubby and I had a few too many arguments/disagreements this weekend.(witch probably pushed me a bit more into the negativity) but we did talk things out and are fine now.
There are very bad influences at my son's school.... Like a girl asking him to skip class with her!!! UGH! Makes me so mad.... BUT the positive he still talks to us and trusts us enough to tell us about these things. Sigh : ) that makes me smile because I couldn't even get myself to tell my mom at around his age that I was held up at gun point on my way home from school. (yikes. like I have mentioned before she was a single mom so all she could do is worry more. I just never took that short cut again)
My little sister had to spend 2 months in the hospital three hours away from home in Guadalajara with her body half paralyzed. But Thankfully she is back home and showing much improvement. Just hard being so far away not knowing every detail all the time..... Not worrying is very hard.
I won't get into our financial troubles. But hubby is back to work and we are working hard together to get us on the right track this year. At least in this department we are not arguing as intensely as others ironically.....
That will have to be enough to share for today. All this stuff makes me question my goals and question if I even really know how to reach them!
But I need to stop the negativity today! Today I will eat more balanced meals again. I have kept the diet clean. Not eating sugar and staying away from alcohol has been easy but grains not so much. Stopped tracking because I did start over thinking all of it and as nice as it is to see all my clean foods nicely balanced all in one page. Sometimes less numbers in my head is better for me.
Going to keep going with my plan for now and hopefully finish losing this holiday gain so I can fit comfortably in my jeans again.
Hope all my spark friends are doing awesome this week and staying positive as well!