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The Missing Link

Thursday, January 17, 2013

I have been listening repeatedly to a podcast on the importance of accepting myself as I am now, in order to successfully release weight and make life-long healthy changes.

It dawned on me that as I released weight this summer, only to regain it recently, I never really did this. I heard the messages about the importance of loving myself thin, and about needing to cultivate unconditional self-acceptance, but since I was losing kind of easily, I just thought "it will come when I'm at goal...".

But goal came and went. And I never did cultivate that love for myself. And life happened big time - many major crisis I couldn't have possibly for seen.

Immediately my self-loathing took over and the binging came back...along with the pounds.

As I listened today, I realized that I've spent my life loathing myself thin, focusing on getting to some elusive number on the scale with the belief that once I got there, I'd finally feel good about who I am. And I realized that this method hasn't worked, not once!

So I'm going to take in this podcast's lesson and really commit to accepting myself as I am, heavier weight and all, post-binge cycle and all. But I will take baby steps because I don't quite believe it when I say I love myself.

Today as I meditated, I repeated the mantra "I forgive myself. I am enough." over and over again. And as I look in the mirror, I say this to myself. For now, this will be my path to self-acceptance.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

GONABFIT 1/22/2013 9:50AM

    Wow. This was the same struggle I've had for so long... When I was 30 pounds lighter it was not enough. When I weighed 130 I ALWAYS wanted to be 120... so I was never happy. And, I feared that "getting happy" with my weight would mean I would stay there. I learned the hard way that complaining about yourself makes yourself MORE self destructive and 30 pounds later I'm doing it the "loving" way!

:-) Thanks for joining me on my journey I'm going to subscribe to your blogs so I can follow you too!

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TINAJANE76 1/20/2013 6:50AM

    You ARE enough and you're a beautiful person inside and out. I hope that if you keep repeating that mantra that you'll eventually start to believe it yourself.

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WATERMELLEN 1/18/2013 8:02PM

    This really hits a nerve for me too.

"What I'm doing is the best I can right now". How's that?

Because: it is!!

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MIRRORBALLMOON 1/17/2013 11:39PM

    I've never managed true unconditional self acceptance either. I'll join you in the quest for it though!

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4A-HEALTHY-BMI 1/17/2013 9:22PM

    I'm with SPARTAN40. And boy can I ever relate to your sentiments, here. For some reason this has been one of the hardest lessons for me to learn.

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SPARTAN40 1/17/2013 1:54PM

    I like it. And maybe meditating to something more positive. Like "I am loved. I am a good person." The emphasis being that you're human. You're a great person that makes mistakes. Confident people don't fret over mistakes. The move on. (easier said than done - I know)

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    I think you are right, but it seems so hard for me to do!

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