Thursday, January 17, 2013
Woah! How did I get to this point? How did I ever let myself get to 245 lbs? I am sure I am not the only person that has asked that question. How did I ever let myself .....
As a mother of two children, whom are the love of my life, I have spent the good portion of the last 14 years caring for everyone else but myself. That is how I got to 245 pounds.
How do I break this nurturing, mothering personality that I have morphed into the last 14 years? The self sacrifice of my health and body to nurture the needs of others (not just kids, but hubby, friends, church, school, etc)? How do I go about caring for myself again when I haven't had the time, energy, or desire for so long??
My kids are getting bigger now, my daughters are 7 and 13 years old. My oldest is becoming a young adult now. My youngest is blossoming into a spunky little "tween". I need to be a better role model for my girls, so they make healthy choices. I also do not want them to learn that mothering is supposed to be an ultimate sacrifice of self - to unhealthiness. That is what has happened to me.
Here is to a journey, however long it may be. To reinvent myself. To be happy and healthy. To find what path I am to follow now that my girls are getting older. To find a positive sense of self, other than my present sacrificing of myself to please others. I do not know where this may lead, but I am looking forward to positive changes and finding myself along the way!