Thursday, January 17, 2013
i have a doctors appointment, they called yesterday, after myself and my sister in law both spend the biggest part of the day calling them.
it was nice of her to go out of her way to help. but anyway, they made me an appt with the sports injury specialist, wow!!! i never dreamed I would ever be considered a sports injury haha.
but they said i will see him first, he will check out my xray and maybe even order one of his own and then access if its surgical or not.
i surely hope it IS NOT!!!
all i wanted to do today was get up, get dressed and go look at a beautiful chevy silverado this guy has for sale
it is lovely...
black with gray interior, towing package, bed liner and bed cover, silver running boards, its a beauty...i may still go look at it later, but right now, i sit here, under a blanket, with wet hair and in my jammies
and wondering if its ever ever ever going to quit raining.
i got back on the scale today and can report no change, my weight is exactly as it was a week ago, which i guess i should be happy about, since i havent gained, and with little to no exericse this week, i guess that is ok.
yesterday i did break down and hit the weights and do 48 squats with 10 lb dumbbells....hope to start back gradually with the weights, i shoulda been toning all along.
while the numbers arent really showing, the body seems to be, i can tell a difference in my stomach.
of course, i plan very soon to speak to my doctor about arranging a referral for the breast reduction surgery, i think that will make a big difference in my back and neck pain and i have been planning to do it all along....honey even said if my ins turns me down, he will finance it for me, cause he knows how much i have wanted this for so long.
which is another reason i am relunctant to go into debt for a truck, even though its not that much and the price is great!!!!
oh well, i just sit and fantaszize that i will go for a consult for br surgery and they will say, hey, lets do a tummy tuck or full body lift while you are here, hahahaaa
but, wouldnt it be nice to be so well toned and have your clothes fit without bulges and lumps!!!!
i had this shirt in my closet and i got it out and put it on and i said, omg, is this what i looked like, it was nothing but tummy
i think when we are overweight, we buy clothes we think are covering us up or hiding us, when in reality we are just drawing attention to certain areas, for me, its the tummy, and making it all the more obvious....
so from now on, i have decided, no more long covering shirts, mostly the last few months i have been buying mens, plain tshirts at walmart, for around 7 bucks, just hanes plain or pocket t's
they fit better without hanging down to my knees and i have been able to come down a size...
and they have a variety of colors, if i wear one under a nice sweater, who can tell its a mans tshirt???
so that is my wardrobe at the moment,
baggy pants cause i havent bought any new ones since fall
and mens tshirt
maybe if i can just break thru this wall and lose another 10 or 20 lbs, i will buy some new clohtes
i just cant bring myself to shop
maybe by summer, if i can get my foot healed and keep exercising, even if its the bike and the weights, which will have to serve for now
and i can lose that 20 plus pounds by warm weather, i can find some decent womens clothes to wear
and get my fingers and toes painted and get a tan and look like a pretty girl