For those of you who know me, you find this blog strange, that I write about struggling. But, I admit, I am.
For the past 4 years, I have been diligent and faithful in my workouts and the various nutritional paths I have been on. What started out as a 30-45 minute full body ST workout alternating with cardio sessions and a general healthy diet that led to my weight loss into my strict lifting and strict dieting for figure competitions, I stayed hard fast and true to myself and my goals.
So last year, I decided to hang up the figure shoes and suit and attack another goal that had been whispering to me and one that my spouse wanted to try out with me. Triathlons - running, biking and swimming. So, why then, am I struggling with getting the workouts in and eating properly? I just don't know.
I hate the excuse of stress - because seriously, during the competition prep year, I had significant stress - son graduating high school and signing up for the Marines, my dad and uncle passed away, and my work was draining me of life. So yeah, some stress - but I still managed to pull it off.
SO, what is the deal now? Again, got some stress, but nothing like those previous issues.
And you know, when I get to the gym, or finish a run, or swim - I am so happy with how I feel and motivated, but somewhere between completing that workout and the next I am fighting with my internal voice and I DO NOT like that.
I will call it lazy and procrastination.
Just wanted to get this off my chest today... basically noting it in my blog journals. Admitting I am struggling with my self. I do know that I am doing a lot of the right things to stay on track.
I write in a journal
I plan out my meals and workouts
I remain flexible to my schedule (not sure I like this)
I haven't beaten myself up or talked down to myself about this
I let my body rest when I truly feel it needs it
Lastly, I am honest with myself - lazy is lazy
And in the end, if it is going to BE, then it is up to ME.... so, enough of this blog, let's focus on moving in the right direction.
Thanks all for reading.