Thursday, January 17, 2013
I was looking through my pics and I saw that I was three pounds heavier today than I was in August! I am stunned! It is as if I have been doing nothing. I was then mulling over the fact that there were a lot of responses to the Done Girls who were returning to SP after regaining the weight they had lost months or years ago, and I gave myself a pat on the back for staying here and working on my goal of getting a healthier lifestyle and fitting into clothes sized in the single digits. I am thankful I did not abandon my vision of living lean, and I am glad for this community of encouragement. There were so many years of failure and so many failed programs. The empowerment I get here helps me stop beating up on myself and enables me to see the good in me. It helps me change my self talk and self image as I transform myself into a lean, healthy woman. I get so many slogans, mantras, and ideas from this place to energize my mind and body. When I slack off on tracking my food, the weight creeps back on. When I avoid the scale for a few days it goes up rather than down. The new habits are not carved in deep enough to overpower the old ones, but bit by bit, I will have healthy habits and they will replace the old. I have started brushing my teeth with my left hand in order to remind myself that I am creating new habits and skills. It is tough going with the left, but it is a good visual for me to focus on, as I enter a new year with the SP Community.