Thursday, January 17, 2013
I did my weekly weigh in this moning and am delighted to have lost 3lbs - however it has somewhat depressed me.
For the last 2 hours Ive been trying to rationalise why it has. The answer of course is because Ive got so far to go and have got to keep eating like I am and exercising like i am for a long long time (possibly forever) and it is really hard.
The thought has depressed me this morning when normally my positive attitude would banish all the negativity away today it has grabbed hold - Today will be a test - Today I must not fall - Today I must prevail - Today is a day of reckoning - I can feel it half my head wants to give up and have a chocolate or a cake (oh how i would love a cake) and the other part is battling hard to keep it at bay.
This blog has helped me rationalise my thinking I can feel my positivity side growing - today is the day a win today and it can lead to great things.
I cant believe Ive recognised the symtoms that lead to failure before ive failed thhat is a first - maybe this time.