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I lost 3 lbs but it depressed me.

Thursday, January 17, 2013

I did my weekly weigh in this moning and am delighted to have lost 3lbs - however it has somewhat depressed me.

For the last 2 hours Ive been trying to rationalise why it has. The answer of course is because Ive got so far to go and have got to keep eating like I am and exercising like i am for a long long time (possibly forever) and it is really hard.

The thought has depressed me this morning when normally my positive attitude would banish all the negativity away today it has grabbed hold - Today will be a test - Today I must not fall - Today I must prevail - Today is a day of reckoning - I can feel it half my head wants to give up and have a chocolate or a cake (oh how i would love a cake) and the other part is battling hard to keep it at bay.

This blog has helped me rationalise my thinking I can feel my positivity side growing - today is the day a win today and it can lead to great things.

I cant believe Ive recognised the symtoms that lead to failure before ive failed thhat is a first - maybe this time.

Kind regards

Kibs

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JOYATLAST 1/22/2013 8:44AM

    You hit the nail on the head. It truly is a lifestyle change. NOT a means to lose a few and then "get back to normal". The good news is you are daily forming new habits. It already IS happening. Your body craves what we give it consistently. Soon you will not be able to imagine any other choice!!!!!!!

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FITFRIT 1/17/2013 2:21PM

    Congratulations on recognizing that Kibs. I think sometimes we feel like this change in lifestyle is a sentence that eventually will be lifted, and to some degree it does ease up so we can look forward to a little leniency once we complete our 'time'. But I doubt many people walk out of time served and feel better, feel 100% better, feel like they have a whole new outlook or life ahead of you...I know it doesn't actually change your whole life, but oh how good it will feel. You won't have to work this hard and this much once you reach your goal, you lost 3 lbs while working this hard. It gets easier, it becomes second nature, it becomes your life, not what you "have" to do anymore. Enjoy each day, enjoy the journey, enjoy your life!

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LADYFROMTHEWOOD 1/17/2013 8:30AM

    Good for you for getting to the bottom of your emotion and thinking it through! The battle really is won or lost in the mind. Don't think you can't have cake. Think of the days you know you will have cake (birthday? relative's birthday? holiday?) and realize just how many times a year you will be having cake! It's hard to feel deprived when you have it already planned out.
I only concentrate on my numbers for the month ahead, instead of the long-term goal. Otherwise I would get discouraged. 3-4 pounds this month seems much more attainable than xx in a year. Then celebrate when you reach your monthly goal! (Not with food, but maybe a new tool for the shed or something for your vehicle or buy an album you'd love to have and makes you feel young when you listen to it!)
You can do this. You're gonna feel great. And you will prove to yourself that you are strong and can be just as healthy as anyone else. You DESERVE health!
I'm rooting for ya!

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