Thursday, January 17, 2013
I've noticed that some Sparkers have what they call cheat days. Days where anything goes. Where they eat what they want and don't worry about calories. They don't worry about exercise. They cheat on their healthy lifestyle.
Personally, I can't do it. I've worked SO hard at changing how I eat. Readjusting my attitude towards food has been so incredibly difficult. I love food. My grandparents owned a restaurant when I was growing up. Food was comfort, food was love. I took great pleasure in eating. And not just eating a little, eating a lot. Eating anything and everything I wanted. I justified it by saying I'm loved, I can buy clothes that fit, I'm basically healthy. I was playing the game.
Do I want to eat an entire box of Girl Scout cookies? Some days. Does it bother me to turn down a dessert? Absolutely. Do I wish I could still eat a bag of chips? Sometimes. But will I cheat on myself to do these things? No.
Am I saying I'm perfect? Not even close. There are days I go over my calories. There are days I stay within my calories, but it's not the best food choices. There are days I eat pizza and chocolate and chips, but I try to eat less than I used to. But I WILL NOT cheat on myself. This was too long of a journey.
Here's my inspiration for not cheating. This guy is holding 5 pounds of fat. I've lost 10 times that much. No food is worth adding THAT back onto my body.