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Thursday, January 17, 2013

Today was a bad day, a really bad day.

I was perfect all night at work even though it was cold, wet, miserable and busy. I kept to my plan, only ate what I intended and drank enough water. All in all it should have been good but I couldn't turn my head off and I was having repetitive memories and chain of thoughts all night. When I got in I couldn't stop eating. I managed to only eat primal foods and kept it low carb but I ate and ate and ate, it was outrageous. Then, to make matters worse I just went to bed, i didn't go to cross-fit or Zumba, I just went to sleep.
When I woke up this afternoon I didn't go to the gym although I did work out a little to a DVD, just floor exercises but I got my HR up for about 30 mins before getting ready for work. I ate a normal primal breakfast, I even skipped the tea because I felt like I didn't need it. I got to work and all that head noise came back up. I ended up at a quick check, stocked up and just eat my heart out much to my partners amusement because I don't often buy food at work, just water and tea sometimes when it's too cold not too.

So now, here I sit full of remorse because I just ate a mountain of chocolate and not even good 90% stuff either. I ate crap because I have been feeling like crap since getting so triggered on Monday.

I am so unhappy with my life. This is not how I want to be living.
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    Ive been binging too. emoticon trying to stay with spark and not get discouraged. its hard. Could be the weather we have right now, dreary. Stay positive, YOU CAN DO IT! emoticon
    1827 days ago
    You can do it!! I am an emotional eater and find I have to turn to more healthy ways to deal with my ups and downs. I find working out a wonderful stress reliever. Please remember just because one day is a binge one, you can turn it around the next one. Even if you have to face it one hour at a time, you can do it. I know you can! You deserve a healthy mind and body and you are at the wheel to make it happen. Hugs to you Spark Friend!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1864 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/17/2013 1:30:41 AM
  • ZRIE014
    keep it up to stay on your goals and objectives emoticon
    1865 days ago
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