Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Went back to the reproductive endocrinologist this morning and got more blood drawn and had another ultrasound. No follicle growth, even on a slightly higher dose of meds than they had initially started me on. So I will now be taking even more medicine (and this stuff is EXPENSIVE) and I go back on Monday for more testing. Hopefully there will be *some* kind of growth by then! If not, the doctor said he might take me off these hormones and put me back on estrogen for a couple months.
I might have spent a fair amount of time crying and being sad today.
But I am freaking DETERMINED to make this work, so until Monday I am taking myself off all hard exercise. If I go running, it'll be for no more than thirty minutes or so. I won't do my 2 to 2-1/2 hour bike rides around town. (And here I was so pleased yesterday that even though it was cold and raining, I rode my bike to the dentist's office 13 miles away - at my pace, about 1 hour via bike each way.) It's really messing with my head, but I'm having a slightly easier time with it than my previous attempts to take it down a notch because I'm telling myself it's only until Monday, and then I can reevaluate and see what effect if any the decrease in exercise had on me in terms of fertility as well as weight gain/mood/etc. A temporary trial period, I guess.
Anyways, I really really really hope there's some follicular growth this time. If not, I will be pretty much devastated to go back on estrogen and have to wait another few months to try again. But hey, at least maybe finally forcing myself to REALLY decrease the exercise will be good for me, and maybe over the next few days I'll recognize that it's okay to not get my 120 fitness minutes in each day, and it's okay to run just 4 miles instead of 10 or 12? So...silver lining, maybe?
Trying so hard to stay positive!