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Magnificent Obsession

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Not too long before my husband passed away, I talked to him about the possibility of a mission trip that summer. The concern is always having enough in the account for the summer bills, whether I go or not - mine is a ten month job. Usually the tax return gets us through and then some. I already had enough donations held by the church to pay for the airfare. Of course there were the concerns for my husband's health and medical expenses, but we'd seen God come through time and time again. And I was sensing the urging of the Holy Spirit that it was time to go. Still, I didn't want to just cut and run. If my husband preferred me to stay home because of how he was feeling, I was willing. And I was submitted.
Well, the same man who a few years ago had told me he was proud of what I did when our senior pastor accompanied me, glad that the pastor could see me in action, so to speak, this time said to me, "I think you're obsessed." It took me aback. I told him I did not agree, BUT, I was willing to go to our pastors to get an objective look at this. I told him I was submitted to his authority and would stay, but I was pretty sure that I had a CALLING, and if I did not go again while he lived, I would answer the call after he passed away.
We never ended up going to the pastors - the Lord called him home. I DID bring the matter before them - and they were in agreement with me, as long as I met other financial obligations such as the credit debt that had risen largely due to his health issues This I was able to do from the insurance I went that year..and unexpectedly reconnected with Levi.
I still long to return. I love to share about Christ, whether it's from a church pulpit, or in a home. But I know I have something else to do this year, which is get this hip taken care of. And I know that wherever I am, whatever I do - whether working at the school, "driving Miss Daisy," or recovering from hip surgery - I'll be following hard after the Lord.
HE is my obsession, "the domination of one's thoughts or feelings by a persistent idea, image, desire, etc."(from And He is magnificent!
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    God bless you as you continue your healthy journey as well as your spiritual one!!! You remain in my thoughts and prayers. God bless your obsession as well. He is our Lord!!!
    Blessings and hugs,
    1885 days ago
    Magnificent obsession, indeed. May He bless you for your fervency for Him!

    1885 days ago
    Funny how the verse, whosover forsaketh not wife or children or husbands or land ect cannot be my disciple. never seems to mean what it says, we were created to love and serve Him. If we cannot let go of our spouses, and let the lord use them, well we wonder why so many marriages fail. Love believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. There is no male nor female in Christ Jesus, He is the perfect equal opportunity employer. ha!

    1886 days ago
    Such inspiration you hold dear..I will keep you, of course, in constant prayer!
    1886 days ago
    If you are going to have an obsession then the Lord is the best one to have! Blessings on your spiritual journey as well as your health journey. emoticon
    1886 days ago
    1886 days ago
    Yes, the idea came from her...but he latched on to it.
    1886 days ago
    The idea came from Moon. We all sat on the porch, Dad too. I listened, said I disagreed, but "whatever." So...yep. There ya go.
    1886 days ago
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