Starting (see blog about goals, 1/15)
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Yesterday I posted a blog of a long-term and shorter-term goals (on Tuesday Janurary 15th--"New And Focused Goals"). Today I'm making myself begin.
I didn't want to get outside and walk today--before noon. I'm not a morning person.
But the point of the walk every morning for 5-10 minutes is about re-setting my body rythms, it's about attitude and motivation. Five to ten minutes is not a big commitment. I'm disabled with PTSD and then other physical ailments, but no disabilities that would usually (except arthritis) keep me from walking.
What has been happening is a "Morning Fail Routine", cycling around my synthroid. Since I had my thyroid ablated, I've had to take a replacement (synthetic) drug for my body to work, for there to be a replacement of thyroid function--metabolism.
The drug needs to be taken first thing upon waking, and then no food for about an hour.
I've always struggled with the whole waking-up....process, oh, it's a process. So, with disability, I've unfortunately allowed myself to hear the alarm, take the pill, and then fall back asleep.
The morning walk is looking to change that pattern into: function throughout the day with healthy breaks; "open" the new day like a gift, taking some time to look at nature, observe the weather, take in the quiet (or noise), and ...I guess... ground (?) myself for the day.
Today I started.
We have about 3" of snow here, so I shoveled the light fluffy stuff. I listened to the snow-sounds, especially my shoes crunching it down in the path. I was aware of my breathing, and aware of the sights, smells, sounds around me. After brief shoveling, I did the short walk down my road and back inside.
I've had a 1/2 a Vega-maca bar (it's cocoa with maca powder--super energy). And I've had an ugli-fruit freshly juiced and combined with seltzer (thanks to Dr. Oz for that idea).
I typically don't eat enough, and I'm low on iron and vitamins B & D. It's easy to give in to my fatigue, given my lack of schedule, sans multiple doctor appointments. I'd give in and go back to bed now, ESPECIALLY given that there are unpleasant things to do on my list (schedule more doctor appointments, take care of important paperwork...).
It's time to have more food, and find a way to intersperse the "ugly tasks" with joy-based activities.
And it's time to be proud that I SHOWED UP on day one. Starting is a big deal.