What does my body even look like?
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Do you know that feeling after you get a haircut, when you look in a mirror and it is shocking for a moment?
That is something I fear about weight loss. What will I look like? Will I still feel like me?
On the other hand, I've lost enough weight already that my belly is extra saggy. It is like a slightly deflated balloon.
The other day, I was at a retreat where they had a mirror that showed much more than my current bathroom mirror. I could see that my large, sagging stomach is being held up by a normal size skeleton.
For a moment, I could imagine what I might look like. And I also wondered: what will it be like when my body doesn't have to carry so much weight all the time?
What will I be free to do? Who will I be free to be?
And I guess, if I get confused by how I look, and I don't know where I am, I can always look for the redhead in the mirror.