Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Are you happy? In general I think I'm a happy person. God has blessed me beyond reason. I have happy well rounded kids(that drive me crazy) In general I'm a healthy middle aged woman with a career, a beautiful family .
What affects your happiness factor.?
Well my happiness factor seems to be affected BIG TIME by my FAT factor. lol. Maybe it's the fact that I eat better when I am in pursuit of healthy. And when I am in pursuit of healthy, I am exercising, I'm outside more, and I'm not sitting around unhappy about my current state of fat.
Why is it when I'm heavier, I am simply not as happy? Could it be that as a child it was drilled into my head that chubby was NOT good. I can not even count the times that my mom pulled my shirt down over my belly... Or how many times I remember going to change because "something else might look better". She didn't mean me any harm or emotional distress of course, and she would be devastated if she new how bad it hurt my feelings
Even as a teenager, at 130 pounds and a size 12, I viewed myself as fat. (I'm sure it didn't help that my best friend was a size 2...)
Why is it that in my warped mind, Chubby = not successful? Probably some of my upbringing. Of course this line of thinking only applies to myself. I don't use the same judgmental attitude for anyone else. Just me.
I've started reading a book that our secretary was reading called the Happiness project. It's well written, but I've just started it so the verdict is still out. I'll give you a full review when I'm done.
As for now, I will keep sparking, I will keep thinking healthy. I will focus on me. Bigmama is in the pursuit of happy. or should I say Healthy.