Wednesday, January 16, 2013
I have reached the point this week where I don't want to blog any more, I don't want to eat healthy any more and I don't want to exercise any more. Why? I don't know, maybe because it's hard to do these things, maybe because they take time and I think of other things I want to do or because I think it isn't fair. There's this inner brat inside me saying, well you tried, but now I want DONUTS and FRENCH FRIES! GIVE THEM TO ME NOWWWWWWW! I think I realized this last night when my granddaughter (age 2) had a temper tantrum because I wouldn't put Toy Story on. She laid on the floor and cried, kicked and screamed. I thought about how I have felt this week, and laughed. She was acting out what I wanted to do! Where does the temper tantrum get us? Where does thinking it's unfair get us? It gets us NO WHERE! In fact it makes us feel worse because we then tell ourselves we failed once again. Recognizing this has given me a boost this morning, I'll walk through the day today with my head held high, knowing that I can and will overcome these inner brat feelings, and move forward with my healthy lifestyle!
Yesterday I vowed to smell the roses, look at the sunshine, the clouds, the grounds and my surroundings and see the rainbows in life. Imagine my joy when I saw a rainbow on my way home from work. That put a huge smile on my face. I love rainbows, to me it's Gods way of telling me He hears me, is listening to me and is with me at that moment, as He is always with me.
Goals for today:
~ 10,000 steps (11k yesterday)
~ enjoy a positive day
~ 80 oz water (96 yesterday)
~ eat a fruit or vegetable with every snack and meal (did well with this yesterday, only had one cheese and peanut butter cracker snack without a fruit/veggie)
~ lunchtime walk
~ smile at least once an hour
~ listen to Beck Diet day 23, follow the steps
~ floor exercises
~ focus on this lifestyle I have chosen for myself and don't sweat the small stuff