Tuesday, January 15, 2013
It's been 8 months since my last blog post, and not much has changed between then and now. I have, however, gotten back on the SP train and feeling extra motivated to eat healthy and excercise on a regular basis. I contemplated joining a gym and I also contemplated buying an eliptical from my sister, but then I realized that I don't need to do either of those things. I have 7 WATP video's with a variety of waling styles, intensities, and walks from anywhere from 1 - 5 miles. I also have a Prevention 2 week turnaround cardio video (which I've had for years and never opened), the Bender Ball 3 DVD system, and the 30-day shred. Before I know it, Spring will be here and all sorts of activities will be readily available at any given moment. I don't need to go ANYWHERE but my lving room to get in my activity for the day!
I also have come to the stark realization that I have to do this on my own. I cannot depend on anyone else to drag me along on this journey, force me to eat healthy, or make me move to burn calories. I also cannot depend on random words of encouragement from my husband, friends, co-workers, or strangers. Dont' get me wrong, those words are great when they come, but I cannot depend on them as my means to an end.
My strategy this time is to turn to and rely on God to help me through this struggle in my life, this struggle that has consumed me, and that sometimes has taken over my focus. I've tried doing this on my own and it hasn't worked. I've tried to control this when it's not mine to control. When I'm hungry as my body is adjusting to these changes, I will pray for fulfillment. When I am craving something that I know will derail me from my mission, I will pray for His strength to make a better choice. I will honor my mind and my body the way He intended. And I will ask him daily for His guidance so that food is no longer an idol in my life.
Today is day 2. I've stayed within my calorie range, drank my 8-8 of water, walked 2 miles yesteday, and 3 miles today. I feel strong, positive, motivated, and....hungry. Off to pray! :)