Tuesday, January 15, 2013
I told my husband this morning to throw out the scale. SERIOUSLY...
I have felt really good the past 13 days of no binge-ing. I haven't really had any urges to overeat. I have had all kinds of feelings, and I have been trying my best to feel them and deal with them appropriately. I am identifying my triggers and learning coping skills to deal with them, etc...
So, DH is trying to eat healthier also. He is weighing in once a week. I, of course, was obsessive about the scale until 13 days ago, and I gave the scale to DH about a week ago. I almost threw it out then, but I didn't want to if he still wanted it.
So, SO... I asked him which day he weighs-in. He said Tuesdays. I said that I would weigh in weekly on Tuesdays also. This morning was weigh-in day. I knew that it might be a trigger and DH was super understanding when I wasn't sure if I wanted to weigh myself. I decided that I did.
I stepped on the scale and was a little bummed. I really don't know why... I seriously knew what it would say. I was kind of "hoping" it might be a little lighter, BUT... I TOTALLY realized that 13 FREAKN' days without binge-ing can NOT be shown by ANY number on the scale. GOOD OR BAD... Doesn't matter. 120-150 wouldn't MATTER... I know how I FEEL, and I feel so proud of myself for eating healthy and trying to get better.
I truly told my husband to take the scale out of the house. I NEVER want to see it again. I am sure I will weigh myself some day in the future, but as for now... NOPE don't need a scale in the house. I know how to eat healthy. I know when I am being successful and no stupid number on a scale is going to make me feel good or bad about myself. Being binge/purge/free for LIFE is my goal.
DOES NOT matter what the number on the scale says.
Coach Nancy says:
When you take the focus off the scale, amazing things can happen.