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constantly thinking about food


Tuesday, January 15, 2013

I think my mind is playing games on me. I feel like I am constantly thinking about food and when I try to think about something else I think about it even more and obsess about food about my next meal and what I am going to eat the next day and what I have already eaten. I do not think there is a time that I do not think about food and I am such a person of instant gratification I want what I want and I want it NOW.

I know that I have always had a bad relationship with food when I was allowed to eat what I wanted, when I wanted and how much I wanted I did not think about it much. Now that I am starting to change what I am eating and how much I am eating I am now that is all I can think about. I try to distract myself and at times it does work for a time but than that obsession starts creeping in and it is back on my mind in full vengeance. It is like when I try to ignore my dog and when I do that he gets 10 times worse in trying to get attention. It is like my mind is my dog and is doing everything it can to get attention.

I am committed to changing my life and my habits but let me tell you some days are so hard and I feel like I am banging my head against a brick wall. But I am confident one day I will have this under control.

Kim
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PATTYR81 1/16/2013 1:16PM

    Two Words: ME TOO!

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I used to feel food obsessed 1st thing in the a.m. and all day until I started eating 1/2 c ff refried beans (Taco Bell brand) with a lite Laughing Cow cheese wedge and salsa for breakfast.

Another thing that helps me when I'm in that mind space is to constantly sip a hot, non/low-calorie drink. Also to get all my protein, water and NO CARBS keeps me going on track.

The other day we were watching tv and a quit smoking commercial came on. I made the comment that I feel the same way about food. It really is something I have to focus on every day (and sometimes every hour/minute/second) in order to stay on track.

The light bulb came on for me!

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MICKEYH 1/15/2013 7:17PM

    Yes Kim, you can control it. I am also constantly fighting with my bad daemon inside of me.
I call it my twin sister. Some days are good and same days aren't. Loosing weight and keeping it off is a very very tough work. But when my twin sister starts to get my attention so hard, I tell myself not to give in and I keep myself busy doing something. And not let myself Pay attention to her. Because, I definitely do not want to go back to that woman I was 6 month ago. That woman had no self-esteem, was very sad, uncomfortable in her skin and miserable.
It's not easy but I rather have very uncomfortable feeling of hanger and food desire then back to my old self.

Here is one other things to remember for myself is, if I lost in a battle. I will not beat myself up. Because, If I fall down, I will definitely get right back up soon anyway. I am strong woman. I keep telling myself, I can do this. So can you Kim. We can do this.

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LIZS101 1/15/2013 5:31PM

    Hi Kim. I think this obsession is something we all have to get over. I am going through the same thing, but I am also having trouble keeping solids down again so I know if I give in and eat, it will just come back up. It just doesn't matter, I am still thinking about what I could eat all the time. I did fine with the holidays, but not that they are over and I know there is still chocolate in the cupboard for my husband it is calling my name constantly. I have to admit that I have not always ignored it, but am proud of the fact that I was able to eat only one hershey kiss and no more. Before, I would have eaten the whole bag and looked for more. I am taking pride in my small accomplishments and learning that sometimes, I have to give in. By giving in when I am really desperate, I have been able to learn to live with a bite and get back to program. I'm trying very hard to understand that a little slip does not mean that I have lost the battle and so I might as well give up. emoticon

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