Tuesday, January 15, 2013
This is officially my first post on SparkPeople, so please be gentle with me!
Today has been the turning point and as the old adage goes - 'It is the first day of the rest of my life' - MY LIFE!
For years i have yo-yo'ed with trying to lose weight, or at least get fitter, and I have even managed it once, but following a year living back with my parents I am back to where i started. Well, actually much worse.
I never really understood those of you out there that said 'it clicked one day' but I get it now. Three things happened this weekend that put it all into place.
1. Shopping - I picked up jeans in the size I THOUGHT i was, and it didn't fit. Not even close. My dutiful boyfriend went to get one size up, and they didn't fit either.
So I brought my bright blue jeans in a size that does fit, and dont get me wrong, I love them...BUT there is that feeling deep down thats not quiet right. I don't know if its anger, or disappointment or sadness, but I did know it was at the jeans. How can you be angry AT a pair of jeans!?
2. This was followed by an out of place comment from a family friend - you know the kind that speaks there mind - "Opps, watch out or you'll crush me!". And of course this was followed by the usual apologetic 'oh no, I didn't mean it like that' etc.
The thing is, she is right, I probably would. How can i let myself get to a point where this sixty year old could get up the stairs quicker than me!
3. Initially this put me into a foul mood which with no surprise was taken out on the boyfriend, for three days.
But this time he snapped, he had had enough of talking to stone, a silent cold stone. Ok, so he is right, and yes we all have out off days but the only one to blame for this is me.
It's time to pull me self together, get on with it and stop waiting. So, I will be the one to fix it. One day at a time. I have re-written my list of commitments to myself, some are new and a few are adapted.
Life is only a game and you have to live by the rules and these are my rules!