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Pathogenic Ocular Dissonance

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Because where else are you going to hear a metal band talking about the eyes of praying mantises and weaving that into theology couched in a ton of medical/anatomical terminology?

The band is Tourniquet, a christian metal outfit that plays good thrash, the link is to the title track of the Pathogenic Ocular Dissonance album, my fave of their.

I was actually digging through my CDs looking for their Psycho Surgery album, since that title is more apt for the mood of the day. That mood ain't a good one, just dwelling on all the things I dislike about myself, and in my life, including the apparent lack of wherewithal to make the changes necessary. Hmmm, maybe I should be listening to Michael Jackson's "Man in the Mirror," instead?


Need to find a just effing do it mode. Get a psychic cleanse, maybe (not in any new age sense, just metaphorically speaking).

The weird thing is...this ungood state of mind may actually be helping the weight loss/exercise thing. Stress and its effects aside, it's an area I feel relatively in control of, and you can bet your butt I'm holding on to that.

Ok, scribbling it out has slightly altered the mood for the better. Might have to try this trick in the future, hope you'll forgive me.

First bit of resetting my life: the hair.
A few days ago (Friday?):

And today:

The beard kinda hid the extra chin. Although I could make it look a lot skinnier by jutting the chin out just a tad, I'm choosing to post this one, as it fits the mood. And will be a nice reference for the future.

And now, to continue listening to albums with ludicrou...I mean, awesome titles, Dimmu Borgir's Puritanical Euphoric Misanthropia. (Link to the song Puritania)

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    Looking good! emoticon
    1858 days ago
  • ANDY_54
    Oh, dude liked the 'stache, but the clean look is good too. What's not good is you feeling down--sorry you feel that way. I'm my own worst critic, maybe you are, too. Takes a while to get over that--just every day self-affirmation that you're here doing what you can and letting go what you can't. *shrugs* Sounds kind of new-agey, but it helps out sometimes.
    1859 days ago
    Nice new cut, shave...a new you/clean slate! you also look younger!

    Keep your head up!

    1859 days ago
    Fresh faced as a choir boy! It sucks that you're feeling so down on yourself. Incredible how much of an enemy we can be of ourselves. The psychic cleanse {also in a metaphorical sense} sounds like a pretty good idea. I think everyone needs one at some time or another.

    Keep rockin' the metal, and rockin' the healthy lifestyle. You TOTALLY got this!

    1859 days ago
    So fresh and so clean lol!
    1859 days ago
    I like you better WITH hair...but I'm a hair-person...product of the 60's...lol

    1859 days ago
    I agree . . . clean shaven, new awesome haircut . . . fresh start!
    1859 days ago
    Nothing like a clean shave to make a new start! Seriously, though, the only thing standing in your way is YOU! Blast that metal, drop and give me 20! hahahaha
    1859 days ago
    You look so.... clean!
    1859 days ago
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