Full body photo's
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
alright! I did it...I added some full body photo's of me onto my spark page... part of the process of adjusting my own self view... I have a pair of jeans hanging over my wardrobe door in my room that are size 12s... my next size down... and every time I look at them I think.. "I wont EVER be that skinny! it's not possible!" but the reality is that my self image hasn't caught up with what my body looks like now and in about 3-6 weeks ill likely be wearing those size 12s! so i thought if I uploaded some photos from along this journey maybe I can start to accept the changes my body is making... but to be honest, I don't see much of a difference... I can see how my legs and body have changed...from the side... but not so much from the front view.... and my brain is having a hard time accepting that this is me.. not just some picture... it's weird. and frustrating.. ill walk into a shop with my boyfriend and find something I like and he will try to get me to try it on and ill refuse because I KNOW it wont fit even in the largest size... and if he manages to convince me to try it on 99% of the time it does fit... it's crazy! it makes me feel crazy. when I look in the mirror, I see the same body from 75 pounds ago...
I know these things take time to adjust to, and in time hopefully ill accept my new body... but it seriously freaks me out how you can know something as fact but your brain still wont accept it!