It's Tuesday! Oddly enough i actually didn't have too much trouble waking up this morning. Monday's are usually fine for me, it's Tuesdays that are killer! And I had been up late talking with the BF too. So yay!
Yesterday I ran the first 3 of hundreds of miles I'll be putting in for my half marathon training. I was not feeling the gym at all, BUT this is a commitment I made- and paid for already- so no way in hell I'm giving up on this like many of the other things in my life!
I had to work until 5, so i was 30 mins late to the gym- which was stuffed with people! But I was lucky enough to hop right onto a treadmill and get it going! The gym seemed to be about 80 degrees and I was dripping sweat within the first .25 mile. The past several times I have been running I feel the doubt sink into me and I think "no way in hell I can run this entire 3 miles!" However, those past few times my mind has dominated and I ran the entire 3 miles without stopping. Now I hope my body catches up with my mind's perseverance.
Yesterday was kind of a tough day mentally. I just felt down and had things nagging my mind. I unloaded on my poor BF, talked things out with him and he helped me to calm down. Part of my blues and anxiety these past few days/weeks has been that I just can't seem to be content with things right now. I'm always over-analyzing things, always looking for what to do next or what I can get more of, do more of. Which is Good, but I get too ahead of myself and then agonize over why I am "bored" and not doing something. I woke up this morning feeling so good! BF helped me out a lot- he helped by just listening too so I could work out my brain jumble. I get a little scared too when talking about the big M with us, just simply because of the unknown! And it's scary to commit to that when you don't know what else you want to do in your life! Fortunately for me I know that I want him by my side. I love him so much and he has become my rock, my shoulder, my fathe,r big brother, lover- he's becoming everything to me. It's overwhelming sometimes. but I just need to slow down, don't get so worked up and enjoy the moment's we have together!
I was worried about getting bored with life. Well I have enough going on each day that I can enjoy myself. I want to make each day count for something. If my career plans to succeed don't happen as fast as I want to I will always have something else I can focus on. Every day is a gift!
Tomorrow's gift is Weigh-in! I'm slightly nervous after my drunken Saturday night Tbell devouring, not to mention the wings and 14 beers I probably had. But I had been spot on the rest of the week so I am hoping for a minimum of one lb lost for this week! That would put me at 212.8- to get to 211.x would be a great treat.
Tonight I am SO excited because Josh and I are starting to do Kettle Bell workouts together! We did basically arms last week and core. This week I may want to do whole body or legs and arms. It was fun last week working out together- I had fun watching him push himself- and have some competition with one another is FUN!
If anyone has some awesome kettle bell moves let me know! Post me a link or tell me about it! I know most of the moves, but any that really target whole body would be great! Wish me luck tomorrow with my weigh-in!!!!