Tuesday, January 15, 2013
I have given my life a lot of thought. I need to lose weight, I need to get my head together so I am not fighting my body all the time, I need to love myself. I have had obstacles, sabators, and gone back to my frenemy, binge eating. I feel I am making strides. Last night I laid in bed obsessed with the bag of Pita chips on top of the refrigerator. I would like to say I fought the voices calling me, that I was stronger than the pull of the chips, that I wasn't sick and weak, but alas I can't. I got out of bed and grabbed the chips.
Am I hating myself this morning. No! Am I happy that I gave in. No! Did I count out a serving of chips, then log them in my nutriton tracker. Yes!!!!!!
Have I crossed over the mountain, conquered my demons, learned to say no to the food calling me, nope, I am still on that journey. Have I made progress, become aware of what I eat, stay under my calorie account? Yes!!!!!!!!!!!
I am climbing over the little hills, on to the tiny mountains, I am ready!!!!!!