Tuesday, January 15, 2013
So 2012 is over and 2013 has began. I have to admit around the holidays I didn't do well with the eating or excercising but I somehow maintained my 26 lb weightloss.
I get on the scale today, well 7 lbs crept back on. Damnit! That's ok, I deserve it. I wasn't working out, I was eating whatever I wanted. It was fun while it lasted but it's time to get serious again. I'm hoping those 7 lbs will melt right off or that it's just from too much salt. Wishful thinking I suppose! :)
Work has been super stressful. It's hard when you do a job that your boss doesn't even know the basics about, it's even more difficult when your two co-workers hate eachother and come to you about everything, or are out sick all of the time, or straight up lie to you. I need to find a new job but I'm a little fearful. But I'm not sure how much I can really take, it's affecting my overall wellbeing continuing to work here.
On a positive note I'm still tap dancing! Our recital is at the end of June so I'll post some pictures then hopefully. I really love tapping. I still do it twice a week and then try to practice another day with my neighbor who needs help (she taps with me). I've never been a person who has had any confidence in my life but tapping helps me do just that. I know that I'm a good dancer and it comes easily to me.
My tap instructor told me during my last class " I think you are going to be one of my all stars one day". Her All Stars are a travelling group that taps and are the "best of the best" or the "cream of the crop". They have opened for Chubby Checker and Patti Labelle as well as Joan Rivers. They are the group featured on her website and a lot of that group are also instructors at the studio. Another "All Star" was helping out with my class that night and he said to me "Yeah, it's unanimous!", he always says I'm a fabulous tap dancer.
I know after she said that my eyes probably turned into the size of dinner plates and I said "Really??" and she said "Yes I really think so" and had a huge smile on her face. I told her that was my goal and If I couldn't be a Rockette then that was the next best thing (I wanted to be a rockette ever since I was a little girl, now I'm too old and too fat LOL) . She told me she could tell that I really wanted it. What a huge boost to my self esteem. I know it doesnt sound like a lot but I always think that I never do anything right, that I could always be better. To know that I'm actually good at something just does wonders for me and my confidence.
So anyways here's to making 2013 awesome. Most people have started on their new years resolutions, I'm getting a late start. Hoping to lose another 26 lbs this year and trying to be more healthy. I'm realizing its a slow process for me and that I'll have some difficulties and downfalls. But as long as I keep getting back up then I'm doing ok.