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Frustrated this morning...

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

... but I'm going to use that as fuel.

I got on the scale this morning.

I know. You don't all have to jump on me. I know weight fluctuates, etc. I just figured, seeing as I've been knocking it out of the park with fitness these past 4 days, as well as been so good on my nutrition side for over a week now (with one day's exception), I thought I might see some progress.....

Well, not so much. Actually no progress.

Now to fight off that voice in my head that keeps saying

"See. I told you so. You will work your butt off. You will watch every bite you put in your mouth. And it won't be enough. The weight is going to haunt you FOREVER!!!"

I know better than to let this voice back into my head. It's why I'm back at almost 240lbs again. Every time I'd gain 5, and start to get back on track I'd go a week, see no progress and give up.

Not this time. I won't let that happen.

Lulu is getting stronger, more active, and finally starting to loose weight. She's so excited to see me get my running clothes on. She practically jumps on me so I don't forget to take her with. And she's following very well now. No more pulling on the leash.

We both deserve better than having me give up.

I wish I could say I feel great and that's why I'll keep going. I'm still in the transition stage. I know I'm slowly getting stronger. I know I'm doing things right. But I don't have the

"I can run 6miles without stopping" or "I can finally fit that top that looks so much better when it doesn't pull too tight" or "I'm almost back into my tiny little jeans" or even "I feel so much better than I have in a long time"

This list can go on and on. I just don't have any of it yet.

I REFUSE to give up this time. I KNOW I'm on the right path. It may need some tweaking, but I'm not going to throw the baby out with the bath water.

I'm trying to turn my thoughts from "give up" to "use this as fuel"

Fuel to keep moving. To know that although I'm not seeing progress yet, I will. Maybe I need to step everything up a bit. Maybe push a little harder in my workouts will do it. It's only 4 more days until my next weigh in - I do it on Saturdays. I can sleep in, relax, give myself time to fully wake up and make sure I'm ready, then get on the scale. No rush.

I have 4 days left to do what I need to do to get that scale to give me a number under 234.8.

Talk about obsessed. It's times like this I worry. Maybe I'm too worried about what the scale will tell me.

It might be time to re-evaluate my fitness plans. Maybe get into some lifting as well. Start to guage based on how much stronger I'm getting.

Anything to free me from that scale.
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  • CHERYLA2012
    NSV's or non-scale victories are just as if not more important than the scale, which only measures you in relation to gravity.

    Having only recently gone through a period where the scale didn't go down, it went up... and then back down, I totally can relate.

    At first I thought 'what the heck?' and then I realized that there was no way I ate that many calories in order to gain, so it would work itself out provided I didn't get in my own way.

    Then I measured myself and discovered an inch lost, and then a pound, and then another pound.

    And more important, I kept on doing all the things I needed to do, tracked my nutrition like my life depended on it, drank at least 8 8-ounce glasses of water a day, and concentrated on continuing to become the healthiest I could be.

    Every little step you take counts. Every. Little. Step.

    I find that I have to eat towards the middle of the calories SP allows, in order for me to lose weight - which for me roughly translates to around 1385-1420 calories per day.

    I like to take my weekly caloric total and divide it by 7 which gives me my average. If it's higher than that daily caloric mid-number, the scale is not going to move as quickly as I like.

    If you want to check your BMR (Basal Metabolic Rate) go here:

    After totaling your daily caloric needs, taking off roughly 500 from that figure gives an approximation of daily calories.

    And based on what I just did, it looks like I'm lowering my SP threshold a little!

    Have a great Wednesday!


    1887 days ago
    Remember, too, that when you are building muscle, it tends to retain fluid while it's building.

    1887 days ago
  • KITT52
    we all have these times...look for what you have accomplished and not what you still have to do.....

    have a healthy day.... emoticon
    1888 days ago
    1888 days ago
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