Me? A Sparkpeople hypocrite?

Monday, January 14, 2013

I don't know if y'all have this problem but I sure do.

Exactly 5 days ago, I began seriously tracking everything I eat (I mean, every little morsel).
Unbeknowest to me, this is a lot harder than I thought people.

In these 5 days, I have learned so much about all the bad stuff I have been putting into my body. Now, I'm not talking about that I need to go all organic, no bread, no processed food and no sweet stuff. I would literally go crazy if I were trying to do all that. For me, that's just too much to take on.

I'm going to be completely honest and admit (grudgingly), that I have now been on Sparkpeople 1 whole year but have only just now begun to focus on me.

I get on this computer and root and cheer everyone on. Encourage people to keep up the good work that they are doing and I am not sure why I'm not being struck by lightning. Me being the proverbial hypocrite and all. I can talk the talk but still get out of breathe when I try to walk the walk.

Why? You might ask. The honest conclusion that I have come to in these past 5 days is that I am absolutely terrified of not being able to go through with the lifestyle change needed to succeed.

Sitting here trying to find healthy, good for me recipes and also trying to tackle the fact that my husband absolutely hates any kind of vegetable (unless his Granny makes her just picked greenbeans for dinner and he doesn't have a choice).

My kids are also very picky eaters. I really don't want to make everyone something different for dinner and usually just end up falling back on the beloved favorite: Macaroni and Cheese, oven baked chicken tenders and mashed potatoes. I know they will all eat that. I have even tried shredding bits of carrots and zucchini and lo and behold, someone finds me out and calls me out on it.

I have even begun to argue with myself about what I should and should not be eating at any given time of the day. (Yes, I do counter answer myself with excuses, I don't get out much) emoticon

I have a really hard time focusing any time on myself. I can tell you right here and now that I'm actually getting pretty tired of being with me.

I am also quite ashamed to admit that I have not actually put in 150 hours a month for fitness minutes in about 4 months. I know, I know. That is really really bad and once again, being hypocritical. I try to reason it out as I just have too much going on right now, what with the new semester for homeschooling starting and getting all my grades and attendance in order so that I don't fall behind with that. I could tell you the whole list of things that I'm trying to juggle right now, but y'all would be asleep in about 2 seconds flat.

I have decided to continue tracking my food, even though, I don't like the #'s I see at the end of the day. I'm slowly learning to fix that and choose more wisely so I don't go over my calorie allowance.

I figured, if I air all my Sparkpeople Hypocrisy, I will be holding myself accountable of pulling myself up by my bootstraps, put my big girl panties on and just put my nose to the grindstone (not literally, that would hurt).

I can sit on my butt and complain about there being no changes to my weight but if I'm not actually doing anything to change that, then I deserve the laugh in the face for thinking that the pounds were just going to take care of themselves. I know, that sounds really stupid. I can't be the only person in the world to think that way (if I am, well, serves me right when I laugh inwardly at myself about it).

If anyone else has any of these problems, feel free to comment on it. It would be nice to know that I'm not alone in this.

I have hit the brick wall and I'm now in the process of trying to get my overly fluffy butt over that same wall. It will be done and I will eventually get to the other side. Eventually. Maybe slightly out of breathe, but that just comes with the territory. That too, shall pass.
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    You are not a hypocrite because you haven't been as honest as you could be. Take this advice I give to all new members to heart,"Don't look at good health or weight loss with an all or nothing mentality". If the only healthy thing you did for yourself was drink 8 glasses of water, that's still a step in the right direction.

    How to get that fluffy butt back in gear ? Start with some simple changes first. If you haven't been eating your veggies, set a goal to eat 2-3 servings each day for one week. If you haven't been drinking 8 glasses of water, set a goal to drink 2-4 glasses each day for one week. If you haven't been exercising, set a goal to take a 30 minute walk each day for one week. Once you've achieved these goals, then you set new ones. And that's how good health starts. It starts with a few simple changes you can stick with. emoticon

    As the old song goes,"Accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative". Give yourself credit for the positive things you do for yourself and don't beat yourself up because you're not perfect.

    Cheer yourself on the same way you cheer on other members. Be kind to yourself as you would to them !!

    1885 days ago
    Never forget that you are capable and worthy of reaching your goals!
    I see you are coming up on a Sparkversarry on 1/27 you have not left the trail .
    In your blog you share what so many Sparkers deal with some admit it others toss in the towel and give up. Sounds like you are some one who wants to keep on going down the trail. This is something a friend sent me when I was struggling.
    Keep going, and allow your efforts to build upon one another One Day at a time.

    You say you live in the sun shine state so don't have to worry about cold weather so plan an out side activity into the home school plan and go on a nature hike looking for flowers planets .
    Tracking what you eat is a real eye opener I know how often do we take a quick taste as we cook dinner. They sure add up. My mom told of a friend who complained to the doctor she could not lose weight and didn’t really eat much at dinner. He had her set a plate out and every time she tasted something she put the same amount on the plate what she learned is all the tastes added up to a meal !!!! –

    Watch the BLT's -- the bites, licks and tastes found this on a Spark member’s status and have it posted on the fridge.
    I know these are a little costly but maybe not in your case since the family is not into veggies. I live alone so I buy the small single severing cans of veggies you can also find single servings of frozen veggies they can in a four pack in my store. That way you can veggies to your plate and not cause an up set at the table.
    Chicken is a great I eat a lot of chicken and do mine on the grill George Forman is great for doing chicken and hamburgers.
    The other piece of the puzzle was working out
    Remember we don't need to go to the gym or work out at home for an hour at a time.
    We can sneak in short ten workouts six times a day and get our hour in.
    When I started the Spark work out challenge they gave us several ideas that worked great for me to sneak in those 10 min mini work outs
    March in place at the commercials on TV sit down stand up anything gets us moving and not sitting
    When cleaning the kitchen do calf lifts while you do the dishes.
    My washing machine is in the basement so while the machine fill I do calf raises at the machine. Or go up and down the steps until the machine starts to wash.
    I put the basket on the floor and stand a fold so I have to bend over to get the next thing to fold. When you dust and vacuum that counts as you are walking! Shopping can count as you push the cart and bend and reach of what you want. Caring it in from the car and putting it away can be another mini work out.
    If you fit physical Education into your home schooling you are getting exercising in along with your child. Sometimes we need to get creative in getting our work outs in playing with the kids in the yard is a good way to fit a mini work out for you and something fun for the kids. emoticon

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    emoticon Never Never give up Winston Churchill
    1885 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/18/2013 3:54:12 PM
    I understand what you saying about not focusing on yourself. I find I'm doing other things of sparkpeople than recording my own progress. I have started changing that a little bit. I have started spending the first 30 mins to me and planning what I need to do then I read the emails and reply.

    I don't have your meals for everyone problem because there are only the two of us at home now. Could you get a slow cooker (or similar) make a soup or vegetable cassarole in the morning so that when you are doing everyone else at night, yours is already done, you just need to serve it up. Or prepare a salad in the morning, cover and refrigerate and just add beans or canned fish when serving. Getting your own meals organized earlier on in the day, makes it easier to just concentrate of theirs at night.

    Exercise is not my strong point and this is where I fall down. I just try and take the long way around to places I have to go, instead of the direct route. Or walk around the office to get away from the desk for a while, no much but it all adds up.

    1888 days ago
  • POSHA627
    I 100% sympathize with you about the dinners. My husband and son do NOT like anything healthy. Sometimes I feel like I have to continuously beat them with a stick to get them to eat veggies. And yes at the end of the day instead of making multiple dinners, one for me and one for them, I just say screw it and eat what I make for everyone. I haven't even been tracking my food for a while. Consistently being over my numbers is kinda depressing so I just stopped. I have made it a point to try and only take single servings of everything I make for dinners and only taking smaller portions than I used to. I feel your pain with this, and honestly don't have too much advice or help to give you. Only thing to really do in these situations that I can see is to control HOW MUCH of the not so healthy food you take in. I am hoping someday eventually my husband will see how much it annoys me and actually try to shop/eat healthy. But until he puts aside his revulsion of anything healthy, i'm stuck eating not so healthy things. Sorry I couldn't help you out more, but I just wanted to let you know you're not alone in this. We'll work it out one way or another.
    As far as the workout thing. Well... I found a very interesting and fun workout program that I really like and enjoy. It's called Rockin' Body. I purchased it online at Beachbody.com. Also my sister got the Brazilian Butt Lift Program from there and she said she really enjoys that one too. And I saw her butt recently and it's really looking much perkier! ( hehehehehe) And with the workouts I have been doing lately, I have been able to get my husband interested in that at least. We are going to be getting the TurboFire Program for him on his next check. Just some ideas for you, if you don't mind doing video workouts. That website has a TON of different workout programs. And once you join you can either pick out your own coach or one can be randomly assigned to you. My coach is awesome and actually is on my facebook friends and she posts recipes, tips, and tricks every day. It's really neat. Hope all this helps.
    Good luck!
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    1889 days ago
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