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Monday, January 14, 2013

Well, I'm doing really well with exercising and eating right. Which is awesome! I am really proud of myself for sticking so well to my program! I just feel blah today. Kinda bored. This would have been a day that I probably would have consumed 3k calories...BUT I DIDN'T!! So that should get me excited right? I wish I could be excited about that, but I just don't feel it. I keep telling myself I am doing awesome and I'm even getting support from my 8 yr old too, which feels really good to see her proud of me. But then there's my bf. He flat out told me yesterday (when I had gone to him all excited that I'd already lost 3 pounds) that he isn't a cheerleader. Then today when I explained to my 8 yr old that I had resisted the lemon frosted cookies (one of my favorites) that he had brought home last night, he took it personal and thought I was attacking him and finding fault in him when all I was trying to do was get some support for the hard work I'd done today to lose this fat suit. I think I feel myself spiraling down into depression and that is so not good for weight loss. I hardly ate anything today. I still have half my calories to consume to be in the healthy range, which I refuse to do all in one meal. So then I will probably be ravishingly hungry tomorrow and go over my calories emoticon I just don't know how to get him on board with me and get him to understand that I really do need his support. It honestly feels like he doesn't want me to lose the weight, that he wants me to stay fat, which in the past he's been all for me working out. I just don't get it.

I could really use your prayers fellow sparkers.
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KJELLYBEAN15 1/15/2013 9:06AM

    Do you think he doesn't want to encourage you and get all involved in case you decide you want to give up, leaving him in an awkward position? I know my hubby has been on this road with me many times. He has never mentioned my weight but has supported me too many times to lose weight and then I gave up. I think it made his role feel less important.

What I have learned this time is that if there is something I need from him to help me with what I need - I have to be upfront and honest with him. I have to ask him to be encouraging (the cheerleader) or harsh (coach). He might not understand what I am going through but he tries to be what I need when I need it.

I think you really should tell him just what you told us. Tell him what you need of him. The same to the 8 year old. That must have been very hard.

And, dont ever forget that if you need a cheerleader or a coach or anything else, Sparkpeople and your Sparkfriends are always here.

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