Monday, January 14, 2013
Today was a fairly good day. I find it very hard to concentrate. I miss Danny. Yesterday I was on the treadmill and wanted to quit after 8 mins and then thought I could do another five mins. After 15 mins, I told myself that I could do another 5 and so one until I did 60 mins. I was so happy until I remembered that Danny would have been so proud of me. It would have been better if we broke up because we hate each other instead of the long distance and with the job market does not look like we will be together any time soon. Very hard. I just find it so hard to hard to get anything done. I am trying to deal with my feelings and such and am swamped with work. Already I am falling behind and it's only the first week. Today I went way over my calories but tracked them and that is a start. I drank 3 glasses of water. Again not great but also a start. I also did yoga today. My poor body. I wish that I kept the yoga up at least. I just need to get with it.
I need to focus on getting into shape and get cracking.
I have a journal prompt to write and it is:
Thinking about my previous relationships with significant others in my life, what are the best and worst parts of my personality? How might these show up in my relationships with students? What fears do I have about my abilities?
Very freaking deep and hard to write at this particular time. Funny how the very things I want to avoid keep showing up right in my face. Now just to do the work and not pig out. Good thing I have no chips in the house because they would all be in my stomach.