I am working so hard at getting healthy and in shape so that I can have my first baby. My husband is a family man, we have discussed children since we were first together.

After 3 years together, I have taken off 117 lbs, with 36 lbs remaining to eliminate. It pains me so that I was held up by this personal factor in having a family. As I complete the last of the weight loss, my anxiety to complete the journey and venture into having my first child is ever present. Last night I forced myself to complete the 50 minute elliptical workout because I know I have to work hard and have my goal in my mind. When I didn't feel like continuing the workout, it dawned on me why I am pushing myself. I really want to get pregnant and I am so close to being able to starting.

This afternoon I spent a few hours in a baby/maternity boutique and our friend who just opened it wants me as a customer. I was like a kid in a candy store looking at all the cute things in the store. She asked me when she would have me as a customer and I told her after I lose 36 lbs. She said oh that is nothing but I reminded her that it is no easy feat. While I am working very hard to complete this, it is not easy. I am making a lot of progress currently and I am working hard to get those results.

I want to finish this weight loss as quickly as possible and begin my dream of having a little family!