Monday, January 14, 2013
It's been awhile since I've participated in the website, though I've been using the meal planner and the recipes. Life took a funny turn on me in December. First, my trip home imploded into an all-out war between my siblings and I regarding issues with my mom's mental health. I came home not speaking to some of them, but we were able to put that aside a week later when my cousin, and best friend, lost her husband suddenly. It was shocking and incredibly sad, as after 10 years of fertility issues they had adopted a daughter earlier this year and were going to be spending their first Christmas together. Her husband was a very heavy man, and his weight was the biggest factor behind his sudden, untimely death, so not only was I dealing with grief, but with a very big reality check about my own weight and health. All of that was on top of the holiday grief I was already dealing with from the losses earlier in the year.
I didn't make the best food choices then, but I'm back on track now. And I don't feel guilty for slipping. I probably should, and I would feel guilty if I slipped up now, but the end of December was an emotional explosion I was in no way prepared or capable of dealing with, so I refuse to beat myself up over it.
For the last two weeks my boyfriend and I have not smoked a single cigarette, we've been planning our meals and staying on track and that's how 2013 is going to go.
I am so very very glad 2012 is over.