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Monday, January 14, 2013

It has been a long recovery from the emotional crash and burn that i had on night shift but I have finally come around. So far in therapy, we have really made strides. I’m getting full spectrum lights in place to cope with the physical problems due to the 7 days of total darkness during night shift. Over the last 5 years I have always snapped back after a few days, usually over my long weekend, but not this time. That is what prompted me to finally seeking professional help. This was a great first step.

Now, for the good stuff.

This is going to sound so basic but I was in total control of my eating yesterday. I reached back to the very basics that got me to where I am now, the basics that somehow get lost in the swirl of life. I went out to eat, I ordered the healthiest thing I could find on the menu, put half of my entrée immediately in a carry out container. Made a large garden salad seasoned with different types of olives and a little bit of pico-de-gallo and a splash of red vinegar for extra flavoring and had a cup of vegetable soup.

The thing with me is that I eat too fast. By the time I have a plate down, I am automatically headed up for seconds. This time, I stopped midway through the meal and waited 10+ min while I sipped my coffee. I was allowing my body a chance to catch up and let me know when it was REALLY full instead of getting hit with the stuffed feeling 2-3 plates later.

Elementary right? Apparently not for me. Somehow the line between knowing and doing has gotten blurred over time. That was all I had, no ice cream or bread pudding. No build your own nachos, nothing. I felt full rather than feeling like I simply cut it off early but I wasn’t satisfied.

I walked out of there 10 feet tall, shoulders back and proud. I did it. I even went to the gym later that night. Came back and had something very simple and was again satisfied, not wanting anything else. I even stayed up and did stuff on the computer. That is another big munchie trigger for me. Not this time.

Yesterday, I had my A game going on. I felt hope for the first time in a while. I felt like I crossed a finish line. Someday, I’ll get my finishers medal when I step on the scale and it reflects not only the work I have done but the faith that it took to get there. Best of all, I watched a video of an Ironman race and started to cry.

I felt hot tears and my throat tighten up as I watched guys just like me cross the finish line. I cried because for the first time in a while I believed in my heart that someday I will be one of them and all it takes is a one day at a time commitment to what I just described above. I too will see it through. Hope has been a precious commodity of late for me but how sweet it is when it is re-kindled.

It is amazing how you find yourself wanting to do things when you have hope.

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WALLINMW 1/15/2013 8:31AM

  Yay!

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LACEYSYR13 1/15/2013 8:19AM

    The basics.... so easily forgotten. We make this journey harder than it has to be. We've all known the basics for so long. We just have to go back to them and stick to them. Best of luck on your journey!

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MOMMY445 1/15/2013 8:18AM

    such a wonderful blog. glad to hear that you recognized that you may need professional help and that you took the steps to get it. you can do this! you are worth it!

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MCGOOGS 1/15/2013 8:09AM

    Thanks for the inspiration. I just joined Sparkpeople last night to have more support and inspiration like this on my journey to bettering myself. Thank you. emoticon

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KATHIC2 1/15/2013 7:51AM

  The fundamentals are key for me. Everything else can set my mind a racing.

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BESSHAILE 1/15/2013 6:39AM

    you are a true champion and you are also so generous. This is exactly the post I needed to read today. I've got the biggest grin on my face right now. Thank you.

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PENOWOK 1/15/2013 6:39AM

    Smart! Everyone around me eats so fast (blame) that sometimes I do too and I can't always get that sense that I am getting full. I know the 20 minute rule, but it doesn't always work for me. I'm going to purposely slow down like you did just to make sure my body has a chance to read "full." and try to get that back. Thanks!

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TRYINGHARD54 1/15/2013 5:49AM

    good for you.. keep it up. just put your fork down after every bite. and chew chew chew.

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REGILIEH 1/15/2013 5:46AM

    emoticon emoticon I am looking forward to you being in the Ironman, I KNOW you WILL do it!!!!! emoticon

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SANDYCRANE 1/15/2013 5:29AM

    So glad that you are back. I have a lunch date with my friends tomorrow, I already have my plan of action. Thanks for the reminder.

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AMANDACOETZER 1/15/2013 5:00AM

    Thanks for sharing!

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SALLY_MANDER 1/15/2013 2:36AM

    YES!!! Yay for hope and a great day! Congrats :)

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CM_GARDNER78 1/14/2013 11:41PM

    You WILL be one of them!! If there's anyone in the world that I believe in more - it's you!! And you will do it!!! I have all the faith in the world in you!!! :-)



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PHOENIX1949 1/14/2013 10:24PM

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DOGLADY13 1/14/2013 9:52PM

    The mental part is the hardest part. I'm so glad you are finding so many victories so soon. It's important to feel encouraged so you can keep doing that hard work that will lead to lasting change. I remember many runs where the tears streamed down my cheeks as I struggled through my own "stuff" and frustrations. Stick with it. You are so worth the effort.

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JUNEAU2010 1/14/2013 9:33PM

    I have always been the fastest eater around. When I was little, Mother would remove my food if she got angry with me, so I learned very early in life to eat ast much as I could as fast as I could. Depriving me of food was her favorite punishment. I seldom had 3 meals a day. I am still a work in process as far as timing of my meals is concerned.

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WEEPINGANGEL74 1/14/2013 9:33PM

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MOBYCARP 1/14/2013 8:51PM

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It can be a hard road to go from eating without paying attention to eating appropriately for getting to and maintaining a healthy weight. You can think it's become mindless habit to eat right, only to have old bad habits show up unexpectedly. Good for you, recognizing this and taking corrective action! Because no matter how athletic you are, and no matter how hard you work, you can't out-train a crappy diet.

And good for you in finding counseling that helps, and getting lights that help, and whatever other adjustments you've found. It's really, really hard to hold the diet and exercise together without having your head in the game. Doing what you're doing to address the mental side is very important, because you deserve to have your head int he game. You're worth it.

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IMIN2GENES 1/14/2013 8:40PM

    Glad to hear the therapy is helping. That's great! I'm a quick eater too. I think I'll try your trick and see if it works for me too. Thanks!
Chris

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NILLAPEPSI 1/14/2013 8:15PM

    I think you'll find the light therapy to be helpful.

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DRB13_1 1/14/2013 8:08PM

    Julie Moss returned to Kona for the 30th Anniversary of the 1982 Ironman Triathlon in which she became an icon by crawling across the finish line. Her training partner was Kathleen McCartney, who had been her competitor. I can't even imagine participating after so many years, being past 50. That is what inspires people.

Keep dreaming.
As they say - shoot for the moon, and even if you don't make it, you will land among the stars.

So glad you are getting treatment for your shift work. Best wishes with the light therapy. emoticon
Way to go on eating slower and tuning in to your physical hunger signals.

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MARITIMER3 1/14/2013 8:05PM

    Great non-scale victories, Robert. We all have to go back to square 1 from time to time, and remind ourselves what worked in the beginning. Today, for the first time in more than a year, I measured my food. Good reminder of portion size.
Congratulations!

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STRIVERONE 1/14/2013 7:57PM

    You are still doing a great job showing the world what can be accomplished when you commit to yourself. You continue to inspire me.

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COCK-ROBIN 1/14/2013 7:37PM

    Very good!

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MICKEYH 1/14/2013 7:29PM

    Congratulations for wining over your inner devil. You did it!! emoticon emoticon

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GOING-STRONG 1/14/2013 7:15PM

    Yep... you will be an IM one day my friend. Great job on the eating. I have also gotten back to basics and am tracking EVERYthing I eat. It has made a difference. On Weight Watchers fruit is "free" or 0 points... so I will have a cup of unsweetened applesauce with berries for dessert. I heat it in the microwave for a minute then top with fat free whip cream. I feel like I'm living large if I can have dessert after a meal.



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NIGHTSKYSTAR 1/14/2013 7:10PM

    I'm so proud of you Robert!! You are a winner all the way around!!!

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ONEKIDSMOM 1/14/2013 6:43PM

    To Hope, my friend! Spark on!

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NETTYBREAD 1/14/2013 5:50PM

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YOU... My friend... give me hope too. I really admire your strength and courage as well. This entire therapy thing is freaky for me too. But, if you can do it, then I can too right?

Such emoticon NSV... YOU KEEP GOING always. I am trying... Some days it's harder to put one foot in front of the other than it is to go run 20 miles.

Keep blogging, keep smiling, keep doing the things that truly make you happy.

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SPARKLINGPEG 1/14/2013 5:44PM

    What a great video.....we all do struggle...no doubt about it. Life throws us curve balls and we just have to keep on swinging and remember this is a lifetime decision....our goal is to be fit and healthy. Sometimes the road is long and winding.....and some days we luck out and have a straight away....but if we keep on trying we are winners...you will make it. Keep that goal in view and never forget YES YOU CAN!

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GINA180847 1/14/2013 5:06PM

    It is so touching to read of your fierce struggle. It may seem simple to some but to actually do those things like slow down when you eat is huge. I have gotten so I try to guage how my husband eats and slow down accordingly. What a vast difference from when I was alone.

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 1/14/2013 4:50PM

    Glad you've gotten the help you need and had such a fantastic day. I think I need to get back to basics on my eating too. Thanks for sharing your journey.

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PORTIAWILLIS 1/14/2013 4:39PM

    Congratulations

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BLESSED2BEME 1/14/2013 4:28PM

    Amen!

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SLIMLEAF 1/14/2013 4:14PM

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You've got an amazning inner strength.

It's something I aspire to.

Keep up the good work!

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IFDEEVARUNS2 1/14/2013 4:08PM

    Love those NSV! You're doing so well.

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MIQUEY73 1/14/2013 4:08PM

    Way to go!!! I have no doubt that you'll cross the finish line of an ironman race!

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LINDAK25 1/14/2013 3:44PM

    Back to basics rocks! Good for you.
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_MOBII_ 1/14/2013 3:40PM

    I think its just human nature...always looking for bigger, better, and easier, when all we need is the basics!

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KOOKYKATHIE 1/14/2013 3:32PM

    It's very understandable how you can get your body messed up working the night shift!

Glad you had your A game going and thanks for the encouragement it gives me.

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PIXIEMOM13 1/14/2013 3:28PM

    WOOhoo! I'm smiling greatly over your NSV's my friend! And I have no doubts you will work hard and one day achieve your goal of completing an Ironman! You have the dream, the determination, and the willingness to put in the work to get there.

I can't wait to look at the links to your videos. (and now you've given me the idea to watch some Marine Corps marathon videos to psyche myself up hehehe)

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CAYCESMOM 1/14/2013 3:27PM

    You do such an amazing job of living healthy and inspiring others. Thank you so much for sharing your difficulties as well. That takes courage and I just want you to know that I really appreciate you and all your great blogs. Best of luck on your continued success. I'm looking forward to your blog after you comlente the Iron Man challenge.

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NELLIEH1 1/14/2013 3:26PM

    Glad yesterday went so well with all your choices and your decision to stop mid-meal, drink some coffee and slow down. Your blog is very helpful to remind all of us of things we know, but need to be doing, too. Thanks emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KIMCOLLINGS 1/14/2013 3:20PM

    Great job on going back to basics. Very good idea about waiting 10 minutes during the meal so the food can catch up and you know when you're full.

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GINGERHAWK 1/14/2013 3:17PM

    It's wonderful that you recognized that you may need some professional help and that you took the necessary steps to get that help - I'm sure that wasn't an easy decision. Most of us can't even imagine your working conditions and I can only guess that it's a very, very difficult environment. Awesome job yesterday - making healthy choices while dining out is a stumbling block for a lot of us. You will definitely reach your goal of finishing an Iron Man - you can totally do it!

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