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Non Scale Victories Inspire Hope.


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Monday, January 14, 2013

It has been a long recovery from the emotional crash and burn that i had on night shift but I have finally come around. So far in therapy, we have really made strides. I’m getting full spectrum lights in place to cope with the physical problems due to the 7 days of total darkness during night shift. Over the last 5 years I have always snapped back after a few days, usually over my long weekend, but not this time. That is what prompted me to finally seeking professional help. This was a great first step.

Now, for the good stuff.

This is going to sound so basic but I was in total control of my eating yesterday. I reached back to the very basics that got me to where I am now, the basics that somehow get lost in the swirl of life. I went out to eat, I ordered the healthiest thing I could find on the menu, put half of my entrée immediately in a carry out container. Made a large garden salad seasoned with different types of olives and a little bit of pico-de-gallo and a splash of red vinegar for extra flavoring and had a cup of vegetable soup.

The thing with me is that I eat too fast. By the time I have a plate down, I am automatically headed up for seconds. This time, I stopped midway through the meal and waited 10+ min while I sipped my coffee. I was allowing my body a chance to catch up and let me know when it was REALLY full instead of getting hit with the stuffed feeling 2-3 plates later.

Elementary right? Apparently not for me. Somehow the line between knowing and doing has gotten blurred over time. That was all I had, no ice cream or bread pudding. No build your own nachos, nothing. I felt full rather than feeling like I simply cut it off early but I wasn’t satisfied.

I walked out of there 10 feet tall, shoulders back and proud. I did it. I even went to the gym later that night. Came back and had something very simple and was again satisfied, not wanting anything else. I even stayed up and did stuff on the computer. That is another big munchie trigger for me. Not this time.

Yesterday, I had my A game going on. I felt hope for the first time in a while. I felt like I crossed a finish line. Someday, I’ll get my finishers medal when I step on the scale and it reflects not only the work I have done but the faith that it took to get there. Best of all, I watched a video of an Ironman race and started to cry.

I felt hot tears and my throat tighten up as I watched guys just like me cross the finish line. I cried because for the first time in a while I believed in my heart that someday I will be one of them and all it takes is a one day at a time commitment to what I just described above. I too will see it through. Hope has been a precious commodity of late for me but how sweet it is when it is re-kindled.

It is amazing how you find yourself wanting to do things when you have hope.

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NASFKAB 3/8/2013 5:42AM

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EOWYNRUSS 1/25/2013 4:04AM

    Congrats on making good choices and seeking therapy. I am always reminded of the quote "It's not what you're eating, but what is eating you." You have reminded me that working on the inside has a positive reflection on the outside. As for eating too fast, I also have that problem. Paul McKenna wrote a book "I Can Make You Thin" where he mentions that many of us eat too fast. His rule is "Enjoy Every Mouthful", and reccommends slowing your eating waaaaay down. The signal that our body gives us that says we are full is often slow to arrive, & very quiet when it does. I have recently started putting my fork down & waiting for a full minute after each bite, saying in my head "Listen". I need to listen very close for that full signal, and boy does it help. Secondly, I have unshakeable faith that you will complete an IM. I have as a goal to do a Tough Mudder race (toughmudder.com), and watch videos of races on their website to inspire me. The one they currently have on their homepage chokes me up every time, there's a shot of a guy in a wheelchair, racing alongside all the rest. Check it out. Motivating. We are all capable of greatness, regardless of obstacles.

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LIVINGLOVINLIFE 1/23/2013 7:53PM

    emoticon You had such a great day and must have been on cloud nine. I also eat too fast especially when I am real hungary. I'll consume enough for 2-3 people and then be miserable for hours. Haven't done that in awhile. I'm learning not to go that long without eating. Any way glad you are doing better. Keep up the good work. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DMORGAN1009 1/21/2013 10:14PM

    Sometimes it's those "non scale" moments that really show us that it's not just about the weight...it's about confidence, momentum, and of course as you mentioned "hope."

These things can sometimes be more important than a scale victory one week. When we are feeling confident and hopeful, the sky is the limit!

Congratulations on your victory!!

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FORBANDE 1/21/2013 10:14PM

    Yup. I'm a speedy, auto-pilot eater myself. It's amazing how much food you can eat before you realize you are eating. Your day was simply amazing. To have your faith rekindled is precious and heart warming. We are all cheering for you and to read that you are getting some of your old umph back makes me happy for you and hopeful for me.

Thanks so much for sharing and putting yourself out there. You continue to inspire, motivate and excite.

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DUXGRL1 1/19/2013 9:04PM

    I've been out of the loop for several months due to drama in my own life, and wow, you have been through a lot but are handling it really well. Inspiring as always!

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SPARKLISE 1/19/2013 6:08PM

    So happy to hear you being so positive again! emoticon emoticon

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KIPPER15 1/18/2013 9:39PM

    Great NSV! emoticon

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PEAWINKLE 1/18/2013 6:17PM

    THANK YOU! I had a rough day and was starting to stray from my goals. Your blog has helped me remember to slow down before I eat everything in the refrigerator! Your last line about hope really hit home for me.

Congratulations on your victory! emoticon

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MANILUS 1/17/2013 11:28PM

    Congrats on your progress, keep it up!!

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 1/17/2013 12:19PM

    this blog is so good i came back to read it again!

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NEWTINK 1/16/2013 11:14PM

    emoticon you are doing wonderful

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SCHNEBL 1/16/2013 9:04PM

    Robert - you rock. You are so fabulous to yourself. I will tell you that if my house burned down (God forbid) the first thing I would replace would be my full spectrum lights....best thing I ever bought for myself and I don't work at night. I think you will find the same thing. There just isn't enough light here in Michigan. You always inspire me. Quick question ....I thought about this earlier today and told myself I would ask you....when you first started to run, did your knees really hurt? If so, what did you do? Ice and ibu? I am trying to start running again, but ugh, my knees REALLY hurt! Any advice would be great!

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MARYJEANSL 1/16/2013 7:15PM

  So wonderful to hear that you're doing better. Every tiny little positive thing, every small victory helps!

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GODIVADSG 1/16/2013 4:33PM

    emoticon You got me teary eyed too! I can see you in Kona my friend... it will not be the end... only the beginning.

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PATTISTAMPS 1/16/2013 12:54PM

    It may be elementary, but it is what gets us to where we want to be. Eat right, get some exercise, and the weight goes away... So GOOD for you!!!!!! Every day that you are successful is another brick in the wall of good health!

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ALDEBARANIAN 1/16/2013 11:22AM

    Of course. I've been finding that more salad, less food overall leaves me with more energy for a workout later, too.

Here's a quote I came across the other day that I like:
Unknown Person:
My painful experiences can be enlightening. I remain open, and I will let myself be transformed. I am receptive.

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NANAWILDCAT 1/16/2013 9:34AM

    Right?!? The line between knowing and doing. It's the same as "it's the thought that counts". Not so much. You can know a thing, and you can think about a thing, but until you do something; put it into practice, well.....Anyway, a big congratulations to you! And keep up the good hope.

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LOLABLACK69 1/16/2013 2:09AM

    got me thinking... and i think maybe i even got an idea with this "back to basics" part...
thank you! :)
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BLUEJEAN99 1/16/2013 1:59AM

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BLUE42DOWN 1/16/2013 1:15AM

    Fantastic NSV!

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PCASEY7 1/15/2013 11:57PM

    What a great NSV!

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JAMER123 1/15/2013 8:48PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon on the small steps that will turn into big steps in the future!!

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DIANNEMT 1/15/2013 8:34PM

    Fantastic!!! I eat WAY too fast--I know it. Being the oldest of 5--you learn to eat fast! I'll have to try your idea of a cup of tea (for me) in the middle of dinner. Maybe that will help!!

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LIVELYGIRL2 1/15/2013 7:13PM

  I am so glad things are improving. If you think about it, it's surprising the dark didn't affect you sooner emoticon . I sure hope these lights help. Please let us know.

The other things you shared are also impressive. It wasn't that long ago, things were crashing down, ad I think you will be better than you started( before these problems ).

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LINDAKAY228 1/15/2013 6:33PM

    Oh wow! That is so awesome!!

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NCSUE0514 1/15/2013 5:56PM

    Keep up the hope!!

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SUSIEMT 1/15/2013 5:09PM

    WooHoo!

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JANEMARIE77 1/15/2013 3:58PM

    Small steps one day at a time

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CHANGINGSAM 1/15/2013 2:45PM

    I, too, tend to eat too fast, so I definitely understand. I'm SO PROUD of you for your NSV! Keep it up! emoticon

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ZIGGY122 1/15/2013 1:25PM

    emoticon on your NSV's

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JOANNHUNT 1/15/2013 12:16PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Way too go. Keep your shoulders held high and your head held high. You can do it. YES YES YES emoticon emoticon

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SJKENT1 1/15/2013 11:41AM

    "the line between knowing and doing has gotten blurred over time." This applies to so much of life. I think when the line starts blurring we try to convince ourself that it doesn't matter, we don't matter... yada yada yada -- all our old conversations.

But you were made for victory! I think those victories taste a bit sweeter when we have felt defeated. Keep your eye on the prize, because the truth is you are more than a conqueror through the Lord!!

We can walk in victory every day. It can happen. But on those days when our flesh gets victory... let's dust ourself off and get back on track.

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PATRICIAANN46 1/15/2013 11:21AM

  I am so glad to hear that you are back on track and experiencing positive feelings again. emoticon

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FROMNDTOGA 1/15/2013 11:11AM

    Sometimes I like the NSVs best of all. My latest one: being able to walk out of the sliding glass shower door without scraping either hip on the frame!
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FAVORITEAUNT84 1/15/2013 11:03AM

    One step at a time, friend. Good for you. emoticon

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IAMAGEMLOVER 1/15/2013 10:33AM

    emoticon Have faith in yourself and yes hope. You are an amazing person. Don't ever forget it.

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DDOORN 1/15/2013 10:31AM

    Excellent to focus on those "little things" (which aren't so little at ALL!) and to savor those victories! Onward, Robert! :-)

Don

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ROCKYCPA 1/15/2013 10:12AM

    Good for you! Progress is always one step at a time!

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QUAIL75 1/15/2013 9:22AM

    You are so awesome and such an inspiration! emoticon emoticon

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DJSHIP46 1/15/2013 9:07AM

    Thanks for sharing!

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