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Monday, January 14, 2013

Wow. I can't believe that it's been a year (almost to the day!) since my last blog post.
I wish that I could come back and say that I've made progress towards my weight loss and health goals but I haven't. I've spent a year of being overwhelmed and confused about how to eat, exercise, what plan to follow and so on. I was so overwhelmed in fact that I just...did nothing.
I'd plan things, maybe start things and then just get confused or feel hopeless or lose motivation - you get the picture.
SO - I've stayed exactly the same. Same weight. Same energy level. Same emotional state. Same same same.
I want - I NEED to get better.
I need to do this for myself and for my kids. I'm holding myself back from doing a lot of things in life because of my weight. I have tried to accept myself at this weight - I can't. I'm not healthy. I'm not happy. I let it affect my every day life. I don't socialize, I don't travel, I don't participate in many things because of how I feel about my weight. I'm letting the years pass me by feeling this way. I NEED TO STOP THIS COURSE.

I don't want to look back at how I've failed - I want to learn from my mistakes and move on. I want to love myself. I want to take control of my health as much as I can. I can't continue to just let life pass me by.

I'm 38 years old. Sometimes I feel it's too late. I am going to learn to overcome those negative, hurtful thoughts and feelings.

I need a lot of work - but I want to be a work in progress and not just let another - yet another - year go by.

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    This sounds like me, except I just found Sparkpeople.......make time for yourself. I am and I think what happens is that we tend to put ourselves on the back burner, so we are meeting everyone elses needs......... and then a vicious cycle starts. Break it. You can do it!
    1808 days ago
    When you look back at the last year, don't look at it as how you may or may not have failed. Look at it as how much you've learned about what does and doesn't work. Use your experiences to make this time around better!
    1862 days ago
    It was almost as if you wrote the words from inside my head. I too have started and stopped throughout the year and always seem to have some excuse why I can't commit myself. I know it's hard with kids to give some time to you, but you are deserve the same attention that you put towards the kids. I wish you the best of luck this time around and am here for support.
    1865 days ago
    Well, looks like you took one forward step. You came back. Now get back to work. Take your time and re-learn what you need to. Participate when/how you can. Don't try doing it alone. We are here for you whenever you need.
    1865 days ago
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