Monday, January 14, 2013
Wow. I can't believe that it's been a year (almost to the day!) since my last blog post.
I wish that I could come back and say that I've made progress towards my weight loss and health goals but I haven't. I've spent a year of being overwhelmed and confused about how to eat, exercise, what plan to follow and so on. I was so overwhelmed in fact that I just...did nothing.
I'd plan things, maybe start things and then just get confused or feel hopeless or lose motivation - you get the picture.
SO - I've stayed exactly the same. Same weight. Same energy level. Same emotional state. Same same same.
I want - I NEED to get better.
I need to do this for myself and for my kids. I'm holding myself back from doing a lot of things in life because of my weight. I have tried to accept myself at this weight - I can't. I'm not healthy. I'm not happy. I let it affect my every day life. I don't socialize, I don't travel, I don't participate in many things because of how I feel about my weight. I'm letting the years pass me by feeling this way. I NEED TO STOP THIS COURSE.
I don't want to look back at how I've failed - I want to learn from my mistakes and move on. I want to love myself. I want to take control of my health as much as I can. I can't continue to just let life pass me by.
I'm 38 years old. Sometimes I feel it's too late. I am going to learn to overcome those negative, hurtful thoughts and feelings.
I need a lot of work - but I want to be a work in progress and not just let another - yet another - year go by.