One step and then the next ...
Monday, January 14, 2013
I have been really behind on reading everyone's blog...I think I had 30 or so in my email!
Everyone is doing such a great job!
As for myself, the anxiety is starting to set in about relocating. I have told my other sister and my brother about moving back up there, they seemed perplexed about me moving back that way even though moving is something I have done many many many times...you would think that it wouldn't be a surprise by now! When I make up my mind to pick up and go...that is what I do.
I also told my ex that I was going and I was all ready for a fight about it, not necessarily a fight, but for him to start in with all the nastiness that he has been prone to since we split. My mother took it surprisingly well also! She doesn't live here, but she isn't in Illinois either, the only thing that she wants is for us to 'Stop by on the way', I had to explain that it was actually a few hundred miles east of the route that I would be driving. Sometimes she can't visualize where everyone is at geographically.
I woke up at 5am on Sunday in panic mode about money. Of course it would happen at that time, because I didn't have to be at work and I didn't have to take my son to work, so I SHOULD have been able to sleep in! Then my brain said "I'll take care of THAT for ya!"
I tried and tried to go back to sleep, I wondered for about an hour where the money would be coming from and finally tossed and turned enough that I woke my beau up. I asked him to do the math for me and tell me how we would be able to rent a truck and he said that our income tax returns would be more than enough....Oh. I totally forgot about tax return!
But now I was awake!
I puttered around the house for a little bit and then made breakfast for us and decided to get my behind out the door before the rain came. I got out and walked 5k, it took me an hour and one minute, and decided that if there was no improvement in all this time, then I probably won't get any faster until I can start jogging more/longer intervals. Right now, its just too hard on my ankles. My feet do feel better with my new shoes tho!
I got sprinkled on for about the last 1/4 mile and I felt good but dreaded how my joints were going to feel later (And I was right)
I know its going to be a struggle to keep up with my walking even though I know its gonna hurt until I lose more weight. I have resigned myself to the fact that its a double edged sword. I need to move to lose weight, but I hurt because I am moving. **Shrugs**
I keep making plans to mess around with the Kinect but haven't yet. In fact, we have had the thing for about a year now and have only used it a handful of times. It seems a waste of money until I realize that its because we have CHOSEN not to use it!
Just like eating, it is something that I need to make a better choice in doing/not doing, eh?
Hope you are having a tolerable, if not great, Monday!