Monday, January 14, 2013
I think that's what I'm in need of. I went through the cabinets and set aside a lot of refined white flour items that are now becoming dog food. I've been letting myself slip some this last month or so and gotten into the habit of cereal for breakfast, a granola bar after morning workout, a sandwich for lunch, and the typical pasta, rice, potato with veggie and meat for dinner but, I've made that worst by added a slice of bread to that since I've been making homemade bread lately. Not that my bread is evil like store bought but it is mostly Organic Whole wheat flour with some oat flour.
Granted our budget for food is virtually nothing this month but, while cleaning I came across a lot of canned veggies and fruits that are collecting dust and in cold storage some frozen veggies that looks like they are about to become one with my freezer. While I stuff myself on gluten to avoid "wasting" food I'm ironically wasting what I should be eating. I guess my brain rationalizes that those cans won't mold and the frozen stuff isn't going anywhere.
It was a rough start to this year with things seeming to have hit a rocky patch but, for the most part we seem to be on the uphill slope now so it's time to get back to normal. I blamed my scale for telling me I weigh 8 pounds more today than I did Friday. But, if you consider my sodium intake has been high and the amount of carbs and gluten (prior months have been VERY low gluten) I've consumed lately it's hard to say how much gunk is floating around in my system because to put it nicely the system is backed up lately.
I've been putting some thought into doing a detox lately. I think I could really benefit from a cleansing but, we're playing the waiting game now. TMI, but if I was on normal cycle again I should have started my monthly around the 9th. But, here we are a few days after and nada, not even the usual acne farm and clinically insane PMS that accompanies it. Instead of grouchy I'm actually in a super good mood despite the somber, rocky set of events that have ushered in our new year. TTC is stressful enough and last month was high tension and very hit or miss but, you never know.
Out of hope I took a test but got a negative. For me that doesn't mean much. My progesterone is too low to support pregnancy and last go around a test didn't even read until almost 7 weeks actual time but with hormone levels they called it 4 weeks and well unfortunately with progesterone and hcg that low that was too long to wait. I called to make an appointment for next Friday the nurse said they'll draw blood to check but that gives plenty of time in case I'm just late from all the medication. I'm glad to have found an understanding office that doesn't think I'm a worry wort but knows my hormones suck and with too many losses I will lose my sanity.
Anyhow, I got in a full 30 minute program on the bike this morning around 8 am and I've cleaned the house spotless already. Maybe I'll do a few more minutes on the bike because I'll get in strength training tonight. Until I find out what the doctor has to say I'm taking it easy on crunches and some of the low ab moves.
I can cross my fingers and hope but, if they say I'm not then my butt is getting in gear because that means I gained weight because I was being a lazy eater. Just because I can fit bread, granola, a couple naughty days with cake and cereal into my daily calories doesn't mean I should.