Monday, January 14, 2013
I am so angry with myself for ending up this big again! I was there. I was in onderland, and what did I do? I let myself go and get huge again. I worked so hard to get there and here I am back pretty much where I started. Why is it so hard for me to resist food? It never used to be when I was younger. And if I get back to onderland will I let myself go again? What is the point in all of this really? Am I destined to be fat? But I know I have to do this again. I have to do it for my health! But why oh why does it have to be so hard?