Monday, January 14, 2013
I know I don't post a lot. I really don't ever know what to say, if I even have anything worth saying.
I'm thinking that maybe I need to do. Maybe it'll help me with some accountability. I know what I am doing. I am motivated. I get up and bust my butt at the gym. I get my steps in. Okay, well except for yesterday. Sundays are hard because I am in Church, teaching Sunday School, and usually reconnecting with the family. It's my down day.
I have been very particular with weighing and measuring and logging everything I eat all week long. Then the weekends come and I get so busy I don't log. And my schedule is pretty much shot because I have to eat at different times. Or I don't get an appetite. Or sometimes too much of an appetite.
I don't know what is going on. Yesterday was terrible. I don't know what I was wanting or missing but it seemed like I was starving all day long. No matter what I did I was starved. And so I gave myself the right to eat. Figured I deserved to eat. And so I did. And such poor choices too. And I was so close to a 2lb loss for the week. But as always I blew it.
I am so frustrated with myself. I work so hard all week to blow it in a single day. Why? Don't I respect myself enough? Don't I feel as though I deserve it? Don't I know that I am worth it?
At this point I don't even know what I know anymore (sigh).