Sunday, January 13, 2013
Throughout this first week I've thinking of reason why this time will be different. Sometimes it is hard to feel like I will be successful when I have failed so many times before. Logically I know that each failure is a lesson, or practice, necessary to one day succeed. With all of things in life, I refuse to back down in the face of failure. I look for another way to succeed. For example, when I was unable to start grad school this past year, I looked at is as a blessing in disguise and am still working on getting there. With weight loss it is harder for me. I have been at least a little overweight since high school, though I didn't seriously try to lose weight until college. But in the process I have learned a lot about health and fitness, and about me in general.
This time will be different because:
1. I've decided not to weigh myself for the entire first month. I will weigh myself at the beginning of the second, and not again for the rest of that month. I will focus on how I feel for the first month and how my clothes fit during the second month. I will not start weighing myself weekly until the third. I'm doing this so that I can just focus on developing healthier habits without obsessing about my weight. I'm going to use how I feel and the Sparkpeople and Fitbit trackers to keep myself on track.
2. I have finally accepted that this will take time and that I cannot rush results. I realize that I may not lose a lot at first and that I may not notice a difference in my physical appearance for some time. I realize that I can't suddenly decide to do everything right to look good for a certain event, or change my habits overnight.
3. I've finally gotten to the point where when I crave a cookie or candy bar I think about the consequences and not just how much I want that treat. I debate about whether I really want that cookie more than to lose weight. I don't always make the right decision, but it is getting easier.
4. I have support from my boyfriend who also wants to lose weight. Temptation is easier to resist when you're living with someone who is also trying to make better decisions. Before when I was living with one of my best friends, it was much harder to make good decisions because she could be a bad influence on me.