100,000-149,999 SparkPoints 112,881

The Beginning of the End

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Dad lay down for a nap about 2pm today. Ever since he woke up, he's been weaker and more confused. That means he's beginning to get argumentative and insist he can do things that he simply can't. He lets me insist on having transfers in and out bed, etc. my way, but he really gave Paul "what-for" this afternoon! So Paul and I can do his care together, or I can do it alone. But Paul had been OK earlier, so I'd Finally gotten in a brief walk.

Earlier this morning we had all watched a live stream of a service from the Lutheran church in Frankenmuth, Michigan, and he said how good it was to feel like he'd been to a real service. He's been going to worship at his assisted living regularly, but there's no music or real sermon. And this afternoon when he lay down, he said he knew he wasn't going to die tonight.

Scout (my amazing daughter-in-law) has taken over on any "stuff" that needs to be done for now, like finishing moving things out of Dad's assisted living room. Tobias makes a point of just spending time with Dad and me together. Doesn't sound like much, I know, but Dad wants to reminisce about SO much right now that I can't get anything done in the way of cooking or starting a load of clothes unless T is around. Paul does just about everything else around the house - dishes, cleaning, and finishing up the laundry. Son David is a single dad and works 12-hr shifts Saturday, Sunday, and Monday, so his hands are tied right now. But he'll be jumping in to pick up on things as soon as his boys are off to school Tuesday morning. So we are definitely all pulling together right now!

Still, it's hard to know that our good day yesterday was our last, even though I expected that to be the case. I'd kept my fingers crossed that we'd have today too. But he still had a good time watching the first half of the Atlanta game (no family preferences there), and he was up for all of the Patriots game. A victory for HIS team, so I was glad for that.

He's also been on the phone with all the family and friends that matter most over the last couple of days, and that has meant a lot to him too. So I guess everything is ready now except for one thing - the room that Jesus went ahead to prepare.
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
    I know how hard the last few days can be in a situation like this as it brings back memories of when my husband died of cancer. The more time you can spend with him the better, but as Hospice pointed out, the patient needs a bit of "alone" time also -- to prepare himself for what is to come. I suppose you could argue that they get that time during the night, but it is something to consider.

    I remember with my husband, he had a couple of hours of total break-through when he seemed so sharp and cognisant of everything that was going on -- and then a couple of days later he was gone. Bless You!
    1865 days ago
  • COOP9002
    Thank you for sharing. My prayers are with you & your family as you walk this difficult road together.
    1866 days ago
  • PHAMS85
    I agree that was beautiful. It makes me want to cry. I'll continue to pray for your dad and your whole family.

    emoticon Alicia
    1867 days ago
    God bless you....loving and caring for your Dad.....makes me cry to remember my own. I never got to see him before he died, but he was NOT in his right mind, and would not have even known me. I am thankful not to have had to see that. I have such sweet memories of him, and I have his had written testimony of faith in Christ....

    So hang in there, God sees all and will reward you one day...
    1867 days ago
    That was beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing. We're continuing to pray for you and your family for continued peace and a painless passing for your dad.
    1867 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.