Sunday, January 13, 2013
sometimes i really do feel like i am the slowest loser. ugh!!!
it took me 14 months to lose 30 lb. gained back 5 during the holidays. feels like i am never gonna see the 190's again... that's a bad day.
even though i hate to admit it a loss is still a loss. when the scale hit 257 i was mortified, pissed off angry and bitter.
i vowed to myself that was my big wakeup call. that's it! time to get this weight under control once and for all.
i knew the weight on my body was not just about food. there was something much deeper behind all my blubber. i prayed to the great divine to show me and to help me. A Course in Weight Loss and Women Food and God helped me to begin to unravel all the emotional crap behind the years of eating, eating and eating some more. i'm way more conscious about how and why i am eating. much less likely to grab that bag of chips and cookies when i'm feeling down, or the stress is high.
it'a a new year and i'm off to a good start. i am already 2lb lighter. the scale is once again moving in the right direction. so yeah, it's coming off slowly.
but at least it's still coming off.