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Eh I'm working on it

Sunday, January 13, 2013

So far the new year has gone pretty well. I'm eating well and getting in movement everyday. I am doing well with my water and motivating others, but still wonder what I'm lacking to figure out why I feel the way I do sometimes.
I have been down because of my failure to have a child again, I have three friends expecting this year and another who gave birth last night. I struggle to deal with my health problems and I'm working to become as healthy as I can in hopes to increase my chances, yet I still feel like its my fault. If I'd always tried harder to take care of myself would I be where I am? Would I get the joy of a child of my own? Guess all I can do is wait and see. I'll be 33 soon I still have a little time to keep trying, right?
I'm working on my health and liking my body the way it is for now... Just have to take it a day at a time.
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JADOMB 1/23/2013 10:22AM

    My prayers are with you to find your strength and happiness. Keep the faith.

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JPVALPO24 1/18/2013 1:58PM

    You have plenty of time to have kids still!! I myself can't have children due to endometriosis and i know how hard it is when other people are expecting. It makes me feel like a failure, sad, and discouraged, but there are always other options for having children. Keep your head up and stay on your journey! You sound like a great person and we all only want the best for each other here on SP! One day at a time like you said emoticon emoticon

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KYLIAK 1/14/2013 1:17PM

    I know how you feel. Had i not been so.... X I would be Y is an easy thought to have. The trouble is you don't know what life would be like had you done more before. Maybe if you had been very healthy you would have been to busy exercising to meet (who i am guessing is your husband in the picture). Maybe if you had done this other things would not have happened.

I get feeling this way from time to time and I try to remind myself that for the most part, I like my life the way that is it is. I try and think of all the things that I am happy with and how I wouldn't trade them for a better body ect. Then I remind myself that the better body and health can still come.

As far as a child goes. I am not sure if religion is your thing but I will pray for you. But know that no it is not your fault. You have nothing to feel guilty for, sometimes things just don't go the way we expect/hope/want but that could happen to anyone for any number of reasons. So please don't blame yourself, instead look at all you are doing to help the situation. GO YOU@

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GINGERD03 1/14/2013 9:23AM

  Working to take care of yourself is the best thing you an do-the body is wonderful & will recover, changed & adjust much quicker then you think. From my weight loss I got rid of my PCOD/PCOS along with many other health issues. I think the weight was a big problem with my miscarriage & trying for many many years with no success. Stress is a huge factor as well-so try not to stress too much-I know it's not easy but you are taking steps to help your body & that's a very good & positive thing. (HUGS) emoticon

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KNEWMETODAY 1/13/2013 9:49PM

    Sparkmail coming your way, friend.

Kathy

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PENNYSAVER2 1/13/2013 4:13PM

    emoticon Keep taking care of yourself one day at a time. emoticon

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