Breakthrough This Morning...
Sunday, January 13, 2013
I woke up this morning feeling a moment of intense depression and tears. I figured out that it had to do with the fact that I had eaten some Chinese food-on Friday night. Now, what I ordered was a bit better than what I would've in the past. It was Chicken & Broccoli and Sesame Chicken. I ate no rice. But at the end I overindulged in the Sesame Chicken. Normally I would've had Combination Lo Mein & Sesame Chicken. So for me, this was a big step. And I had leftovers-but I threw out what was left of the Sesame Chicken.
After talking with some supportive friends, I started thinking. I lost about 40lbs last year and a good portion was from eliminating sugar. But the other part of that was from not focusing on "dieting". So when I joined WW ago almost 2 weeks ago, I went backwards. I feel like I'm too obsessed with counting this and the points for that. I am not cutting myself any slack. I don't want to be obsessing about #'s-with what I eat or what I weigh. So I have decided I will be cancelling my WW membership and trading it in for a gym membership. I feel like I know what I should and should not eat too much of without having this pressure I put on myself and becoming obsessive about it all. I don't work well that way. I want to continue making 1 healthy recipe a week for this year. And I want to focus on becoming addicted to exercise.
I am looking into a gym near me called Planet Fitness. They offer a $10 a month program. It's open 24hrs. No fitness classes just the equipment and instruction by a trainer. My only concern is the area where mine is located is not in the best area of town. I am often wide awake between 230-430 in the morning and would love to be able to take advantage of using a gym during those hours. But I am concerned about my safety. I need to go and check it out.
So 2 weeks into the year. I am still EXPECTING AMAZING and going FORWARD. I still want to lose 100lbs this year. And I am discovering to do lists! What an awesome thing those are. I feel like I am having to rely LESS on my memory and more on my iPad-it's a good thing.
Let's make this a
butt week! DO YOU!