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Breakthrough This Morning...

Sunday, January 13, 2013

I woke up this morning feeling a moment of intense depression and tears. I figured out that it had to do with the fact that I had eaten some Chinese food-on Friday night. Now, what I ordered was a bit better than what I would've in the past. It was Chicken & Broccoli and Sesame Chicken. I ate no rice. But at the end I overindulged in the Sesame Chicken. Normally I would've had Combination Lo Mein & Sesame Chicken. So for me, this was a big step. And I had leftovers-but I threw out what was left of the Sesame Chicken.

After talking with some supportive friends, I started thinking. I lost about 40lbs last year and a good portion was from eliminating sugar. But the other part of that was from not focusing on "dieting". So when I joined WW ago almost 2 weeks ago, I went backwards. I feel like I'm too obsessed with counting this and the points for that. I am not cutting myself any slack. I don't want to be obsessing about #'s-with what I eat or what I weigh. So I have decided I will be cancelling my WW membership and trading it in for a gym membership. I feel like I know what I should and should not eat too much of without having this pressure I put on myself and becoming obsessive about it all. I don't work well that way. I want to continue making 1 healthy recipe a week for this year. And I want to focus on becoming addicted to exercise.

I am looking into a gym near me called Planet Fitness. They offer a $10 a month program. It's open 24hrs. No fitness classes just the equipment and instruction by a trainer. My only concern is the area where mine is located is not in the best area of town. I am often wide awake between 230-430 in the morning and would love to be able to take advantage of using a gym during those hours. But I am concerned about my safety. I need to go and check it out.

So 2 weeks into the year. I am still EXPECTING AMAZING and going FORWARD. I still want to lose 100lbs this year. And I am discovering to do lists! What an awesome thing those are. I feel like I am having to rely LESS on my memory and more on my iPad-it's a good thing.

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    Remember that you're doing this as a gift to yourself. One of the ways I keep from obsessing is to remind myself that my body will respond whether or not I write anything down. It's not like weight loss is only delivered as a gift to those who have meticulously kept track of every last calorie in and out. I too joined Planet Fitness recently, and I love the freedom there. What ever you do, keep doing it! It adds up.
    1859 days ago
    I think that sounds like a great plan! I too can not obsess with the numbers. I think you made a good decision!
    1861 days ago
    I learned a long time ago that what works for one person may not for another so You do what will work for you and what you can LIVE with and be happy ! You are amazing ... and YOU are worth it !! this is a journey for us all and we discover new thing along the way or we are NOT making progress !!

    1861 days ago
    I think that's a great choice for yourself, especially knowing you don't do well with numbers. I do SFT, so no counting for me, other than for the weekly extras. That's what works best for me and the way I eat, however if the weight loss stalls or I start gaining, I'll switch back to points to get a good handle on it again. I think it's awesome you know yourself well enough to make this decision and know you will still do great!

    K at work goes to Planet Fitness (the one you're referring to) and loves it. It is in a not great area though, I know. I go to the one in Manassas after work with a friend and it's a much nicer area, but not convenient for when home. I still go to Anytime Fitness (the one off Ridgefield) and use that one much more. It was just easy to join the other one for on $10 a month to go with a friend. I'd pay more than that in guest passes, so if I go at least once a month (I do), I've saved money.

    Keep up the great work!
    1863 days ago
    You are on the right track, Simone. Be careful about the gym - it sounds a little dicey.
    1863 days ago
    Sorry to hear this set back is making you feel guilty. Remember we all make mistakes and you need to let it go.

    Portion control is important too, not just stop eating all you love. SP suggests that won't help you in the long run in fact you may give up if you don't occasionally have what you like...just try to practice portion control.

    BTW: So proud you made better choices than last year Chinese food order. Think about that! emoticon
    1863 days ago
    I'm so proud of you for finding what the issue is and knowing how to correct it. You are so strong and amazing woman. You are already AMAZING! But I look forward to you growing and learning, creating a life, the way you desire it to be. Love ya sister!
    1863 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/13/2013 2:37:11 PM
    ((HUGS)). You are going to have an AMAZING year, my friend! Actually...we both are!

    1863 days ago
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