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Reflection: The Good, The bad and the Ugly

Sunday, January 13, 2013

I have really been thinking the last few days of what my journey has been. There has to be a reason that I have been stuck at this weight for the last year.

I'm going to start with the Ugly:
I really thought about it and realize that I cheat myself when it comes to my choices. I convince myself that I am making good choices as I do for breakfast and lunch, but then dinner becomes a free for all if we eat out. I generally start with a Cosmopolitan, have one or two glasses of wine with dinner and, many times, end with a Cosmopolitan or some Irish Whiskey. If I don't end at the restaurant with the after dinner drink, I will continue at home. If I have a glass of wine at home, I will generally continue or change to Vodka and Lemonade. This is a whole lot of wasted calories. I do not measure so I don't believe I am accurately writing down how many calories I have actually consumed.

Solution: I have made a very conscious attempt to cut this out. I haven't had any alcohol for 3 days. We did go out for lunch yesterday before the barn and I didn't order a drink. Further, I have decided to keep a food journal very much the same as my exercise journal. No matter what I put in my mouth I will write it down. It is not always easy to track everything on here, but when you lay out everything you have eaten/drank in front of you, it is pretty hard to pretend it isn't there.

The Bad:
Stress, Stress, Stress...
I drive myself crazy. I can consume myself with stuff that I can't change. I keep going through the "what ifs". I find that I get upset all of a sudden with other stuff when I am supposed to be having fun. Of course, the stress is what leads me to the ugly.

Solution: Learn to let go of it and follow the model below:

I have to focus on the positive. I am starting to write 5 positive things down every day!

The Good:
Exercise. I have actually learned to enjoy it. I do not go into each day with a plan, but I know I have to get some form of exercise in before lunch as it is hard for me in the afternoons. I will generally do Walk it Out and the treadmill or Leslie Sansone or a combination of all three. That is my go to workout. Some days, I throw in Exerbeat, but I have been staying away from that lately to challenge myself on the treadmill.

I also have my JC days. I learned that I have to do a warm up even on him as it take time to get his rhythm. Once I do, then we do a lot of trotting for a high calorie burn. That horse
is an AB workout on his own. I have never ridden a horse that works your abs like he does.

Nutrition: I have been really conscious of what I am eating lately. I have added more healthy foods like oatmeal and flaxseed into my diet. I have also added more whole grains.

Once again, I think the food journal will help me keep on track with the eating. Also, my husband has agreed that we can get the Fitbit Aria scale. That posts straight onto the fitbit site, so maybe having something accurate will help. The scale we have is awful so I use the Wii Balance board, but that is not digital so I kind of have to guess part of it.

I will be successful in this journey and not let anyone or anything derail me!
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    Drinking is a lot of empty calories. I bet a week after cutting out or back on it, you will have great results.
    Great reflection! emoticon
    1771 days ago
    Great blog! You've got all the answers! Letting go of stress is a difficult one. I'm trying to let go of the sense of worry and anxiousness I get and I KNOW BETTER and still don't seem to fair well in giving it all to God the way I should. Change is hard, but with good effort, we both can do it! This is another challenge coming up where I have to get back into my healthy BMI . . . I've had way too much fun in the splurge department. You can do this, but know you can also begin anew immediately, when things go awry. Hug, hug -- Evelyn
    1772 days ago
    Good for you! Sitting down and figuring it all out, and blogging about it! Good Luck emoticon !!!
    1772 days ago
    Great analysis of what's going on in your life - and what you can do to change it!

    Using the nutrition tracker has been really important for me, there's only been one day since I joined SP in Sept 2012 that I didn't track everything I ate (that day was just so messed up that I had no real idea of everything I had eaten and gave it up as a lost cause). When I started doing that, and seeing how many calories I was adding with alcohol, it became pretty clear where my biggest problem was. It had become my preferred way of dealing with stress, too, and that didn't seem like the best reason to drink, when I really thought about it.

    Best wishes for success in achieving all your goals!
    1772 days ago
    You have to identify a problem before you can correct it--you've taken step one!
    1772 days ago
    emoticon I have failed to keep up with a food journal so many times.

    I need to try harder Thank you emoticon
    1772 days ago
  • TERESA159
    Wow Nina, I could have written this same blog! I suffer from the same issues. My drinking was adding so many calories and adding stress too. I have been going around and around with it for years. I finally decided on New Year's Eve to just STOP DRINKING. Yep, scary, but I want to do it. So, I only had champagne at midnight and I still had fun. That's the thing, I could not see how I could enjoy life without having those yummy, relaxing cocktails or the wine (or both, you sound just like me!). It's been 12 days since I had anything to drink and I feel just fine. And think of all the calories I am saving! And the stress of knowing that I was poisoning my body with the alcohol and that I was consuming so many extra calories, not to mention the expense and that I then could not remember some of what went on while we were out drinking. All that stuff, gone. Now I find my mental state is much more positive. I am not telling myself so many negative things. It's great. I am going to make 2013 the year I do not drink. Nothing! No drinking for one year. It will not be easy. I live where beer is king and my family is made up of major party-ers. But, whatever. I want to do this and do it for me. So, if I am bitchy on here or start using bad words in our Words with Friends games, please forgive! LOL
    You are a smart lady and I loved this blog!
    P.S. I truly believe that if we can lick the stress thing, we will be free to really start enjoying life. Am going to go read all the stress articles!
    1772 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/13/2013 11:43:11 AM
    Spark has some very good resources for dealing with stress (check out articles under Healthy Lifestyle). As for me, whenever I'm stressed I run to the Lord in prayer.
    He never lets me down!
    1772 days ago
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