It really hurts
Sunday, January 13, 2013
Well I am married, and this is a choice that I made. I often feel now that I have made the wrong choice. My husband is very vial and nasty with his mouth. He feels that I must do as he say and not have a voice. I support him the best way that I possibly can and that is never good enough. I often wonder when will I ever get support. Last night, I finally realized that I would not get any support from him. We had a very heated argument over the phone and I hung up on him and turned off my phone. Do I regret what I have done!! Excuse my expression "HELL NO!" I don't. He must realize that it's not a choice for me to be in his corner. It's not an obligation; it's because I want to. I must say that I went to be feeling really upset, but woke up this morning feeling ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS! I get tired of being walked all over. I take care of the kids, clean the house, pay the bills, make sure everyone is OKAY! and I have to hear from my husband all the time oh somebody said you said this and that and this. I'm to old for this. I don't have a life and now I will because I see that I needed to set myself free and do something for me. He is upset because I am going to the gym. Since I started January 2, 2013, I have lost 8 pounds; this is due to my hard work and dedication, not because of his support. The more he ridicules me the more MOTIVATION is set forth for me to prove to myself that I can do it. I realize that I don't need a man in my life like that. He has his own issues in which, I have been so supportive of and now Springbaby has broken free from the CHAINS and NEGATIVITY. I know marriage is a union where disagreement go ups and downs; but I'm NO ONE'S DOOR MAT!