Saturday, January 12, 2013
I haven't been active on SparkPeople for quite a long time. I decided in November 2012 that I need to get my act together. My divorce was completely finalized in November 2012 (divorced in March 2012 but the settlement part didn't happen until the beginning of November 2012).
I have struggled with the divorce and feeling worthless and struggling with being rejected...even though I left him. Therapy has done wonders but I still struggle from time to time. Today is one of those days.
I have learned and continue to learn about myself and why I do the things I do. I am an emotional eater (you name the emotion, I'll eat it! lol). I'm working on that. Sometimes I do better than others. I'm trying to not beat myself up when I fail but to love myself unconditionally. I know this is a journey not a race. I am determined to finally be happy with myself and take care of myself FIRST rather than put myself last (or not at all). I am inspired by so many that have been on this journey and are ahead of me and willing to share their experiences. I am motivated by those who have struggles but keep at it. They understand not every day is easy but do what they can to keep moving (figuratively and literally).
I am going to do this and every day, even when I struggle, I will do ONE thing to move me toward loving myself more.