1/12/13: My new goal this week is to write how I'm doing every day. That may be a bit ambitious, since nursing school starts back up on Monday and I will be crazy busy and sleep-deprived. But it is another step in this journey, and another way to keep myself accountable. I joined Spark People on 1/12/13, and I have read a few other blogs, so I think I get the hang of this.
Let me start at the beginning (well, not that far back. That would be a LONG blog entry.) How about just the basics about me then? I'm 47 years old, and I have been overweight for as long as I can remember (except for about a year and a half in my twenties, when I successfully lost 25 lbs. through Jenny Craig.) I have been over 200 lbs. for so many years, that I don't remember what it feels like to be a healthy weight. Judging by how hard it is for me to lose weight, I don't think my body remembers, either. Despite being so overweight, I stay fairly active. I walk several times per week. I've started going back to the gym to have other options for cardio, to swim in the pool, and to use the circuit weight machines. That activity, coupled with good genes (thank you Mom, and Oma!) means that I don't have heart issues or diabetes, and my joints are still pretty strong. But as my Physiology professor so "kindly" put it, for how long? At some point, my body is going to rebel and say "Enough is enough! God only gave you one body, so start taking better care of it! And that's why I turned to Spark People.
As I have seen in many peoples' stories here on SP, this is not my first attempt at losing weight. I have been on several programs (WW, Jenny Craig), participated in expensive programs at the gym, gone to nutritionists, joined weight loss challenges, joined Overeaters anonymous, taken weight loss supplements and miracle pills, eaten tasteless, prepackaged diet meals, and spent lots and lots of money in the process. What I haven't done is stick with anything more than 12 weeks (and far less if it is not professionally supervised), I haven't really made my health a priority, and I haven't had any lasting success. Can anyone relate? I'm guessing there's a lot of "Hell yeah's" at this point from other Spark members! That makes this site so great, is that we have similar paths that lead us to this point, and we can relate to each others journeys. I really want this to be my last final attempt to lose this weight, and that the motivation and commitment I feel today will become as normal as breathing and sleeping. I'm not going to plan any further than the day I'm in, set very small reasonable goals, and ask for help and support along the way. I hope this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship!
Have a wonderful weekend, Spark People. Stop by and say "Hello", share something about your journey, let me know how you are doing, and I'll do the same. Right now, I'm going to take the dog for a walk, because he has been waiting patiently all day and it makes him so happy!
~ Monica from Texas
Student Nurse, Mom to two teenage boys, wife to Kevin, and Jill of all trades