Saturday, January 12, 2013
So I started school back up this week. I'm trying to incorporate studying for boards with regular studying and doing extra work because I'm going on vacation next week and missing a bunch of required things =way more work:(, plus it's the week before a test which is when I usually study a lot more than normal. Anyway, this has resulted in waking up at 6am everyday but still not being able to go to sleep early (1am-4am) and only getting 2-4 hours of sleep. I've actually been pretty good about avoiding my late late night when I should be sleeping but am not and snack cravings, but Thur/Fri I baked and cooked for a friend's bday party and totally ate multiple cupcakes and dip. I need to learn to not taste when I bake/cook! I also drank and had other food and cake last night. It was definitely a night of "oh well, I'll start again tomorrow" - which is my problem entirely. My bf finally quit smoking on New Years, cold turkey with no plan (statistically, not setting himself up for the highest chances of sticking with it, but it has worked for people so I didn't argue with it). Last night, his friend (who supposedly isn't a smoker) had him come out and smoke with him, and he totally smoked. It's almost the last straw - I've waited for 5 years (I told him on our 4th date, that if our dating ever turned into anything I wasn't ok with him smoking) and he FINALLY quit, only to be smoking again. I also don't understand his friend - why would you peer pressure your friend into smoking when you know he's trying to quit? Yeah we're all adults, but it's so not helpful. After the party I said that I couldn't believe he smoked all night, he said "well, you're eating." Which was pretty mean. I feel really tempted to tell him to find a new place to live and then eating healthy will be super easy without all of his junk food in the house. Errr,
I stopped by the gym to drop something off and ran into the wellness director. He said something about running and I made a comment that it's too icy. He said "I don't know, I don't make excuses, I just go everyday." I responded "but it's so dangerous" and he just repeated himself. I thought it was a bit harsh but thinking about it later I have to agree with him, and maybe I needed to tough love. I make so many excuses. Yeah, they're all valid, but they're still excuses. Hopefully this week will go a little better.