Saturday, January 12, 2013
It has been a while now since I have become a member of Sparkpeople. I was going good for a while, but then fell under a lot of stress. I almost died from my heart condition and found out my husband was having another affair. I finally had enough. I decided to kick him out and move on with my life, but not before I started really feeling down on my self. I started negative self-talking and that was really unhealthy for me. I would think to myself, "It is my fat that makes him turn to another woman," or I am just not attractive enough to keep my husband interested in only me." I started to give up on everything. Working out was no longer an interest for me because I felt that it didn't matter what I did, I will never be happy enough to enjoy it. I started eating junk food more and not watching my portions. I was just overall depressed.
Now, I am dating a wonderful man. He has been a friend of mine for about 15 years and he is also my daughter's godfather. He was going through a rough time and became separated from his wife. We would lean on each other and could talk about anything. He listened to me cry and feel sorry for myself and he watched me fall apart. One thing lead to another and we are together now. He picked me back up and made me feel that I could do anything. He supports me in my weight loss journey and has even joined a gym with me. He works out with me 3 days a week and he gave up a lot of the junk food so I would not be tempted. Don't get me wrong, I still enjoy a snack or two. He just helps me through it every step of the process. I am starting to feel good again.
Today, I finished school. I have obtained my Bachelor's degree in Criminal Justice. I have chosen to walk in the July 27, 2013 ceremony in Tampa, Florida. My goal is to reach my weight loss goal by then so I can walk in that ceremony feeling great about myself. I am already proud of my accomplishment, but now I am excited to be doing it all. I just could not do it without the support of my friends, my family, and most of all my boyfriend.