Yesterday's Spark Coaching video was all about the looking for the motivation behind the wanting to lose weight, and making That the goal.
I'm all about Goals right now - short term, long term, meeting goals. This is new for me. Although I have accomplished a lot in my life, and plan on accomplishing a lot more :), still, I have never really consciously set goals for myself. It's time!
So it's been a month now on SP, and there have been ups and downs. Lost 7 pounds, gained back 3, so net loss=4 pounds. Given that this was over the holidays and a work retreat, I think it's not so bad. But I think the bigger take away for myself is, that I'm still here. Hasn't that been the issue for so many of us? Trying to get with a program to lose weight, and get fit - and then feeling like we've failed and giving up? That's sure been true for me.
Still here, still here.... Learning a new way to be. It's settling in for the long haul, welcoming myself to the active New. For the first time not giving up if I ate something - or more than something - that wasn't on "the diet". Or not exercising exactly according to plan. I love the quote that came up on the SP page the other day:
It's what we do every day, day in and day out - not what we do occasionally. The idea that I/we don't have to be perfect, all or nothing, that this is a process and we need to be our best friends in it - this is new. Be my own best friend? Encourage myself? Speak to myself with kindness, love and encouragement? New. New New New New New.
You know, we can say that we want to try something new, but we actually don't know what it's going to be like until we DO IT.
So what is my underlying motivation? I think this is going to unfold - the first things that have come to mind is, wanting to stand out for who I am, not stand out because I'm fat. I am so tired of being "different", the fat one, the one who doesn't "fit. Is that a goal? I think it is.
Goal #1: Losing weight and Getting fit - to be able to stand out and shine for who I am, not because I'm fat.
Goal #2: Be that athlete that I know is inside of me. The sea kayaker, the skier, the hiking-across-Europe person, the biking in Tuscany woman. Becoming the athlete that I know I am.
Goal #3: Look beautiful. Wearing beautiful clothes, shopping in Paris, wherever I like. Being the size where I can look how I feel!!
Goal #4: Being able to travel wherever I like, my size no longer being an obstacle. Whether that's going to Bhutan, or Antarctica, or sailing in Croatia - being able to embrace the experience fully, no longer having to worry about "will I fit"? Will people be looking at me funny? Sitting down at a cafe in Paris, and easily and comfortably fitting into the chair and behind the table.
So that's it for today... Again, what's foremost on my mind right now, is the Keep Going aspect to SP, Keep Going. You are Welcome Here - We are all Welcome Here.