Saturday, January 12, 2013
Where to begin. This past week has been ROUGH. Last Saturday I spent the whole day in the hospital with a friend who was a victim of domestic abuse and ended up in the hospital. On top of that, she had back surgery back in September and has not been able to walk since. She was in so much pain from wrenching her back , something was obviously wrong, but no one at the first hospital would take her seriously and bacially rushed us out. So I ened up taking her to two different hospitals trying to get someone to take her seriously. So that ate up my whole day and I didnt realize until midnight that the only thing I had to eat all day was oatmeal at 8 am. So, like any rational person, I decided that the best idea was to eat the most caloric thing I could get my hands on at that hour. Great logic. Sunday was just as stressful, and my diet was just as terrible. Im an awful stress eater.
I figured that once I got back into my normal routine I could undo my weekend damage. Well, while parking my car at work I ended up hitting the gas pedal instead of the break, and rammed my car into a cement wall. My airbag went off, and I ended up totaling my car. I wasnt majorly injured, but the airbag did hit me square in the chest, my knees hit my steering column, I hit my thigh really hard on my door, and I jammed both of my arms. So for this last week, I've been restricted to doing nothing. No working out, barely walking, and generally pissy. My diet took such a tank this week, I am feeling so discouraged. Im back to work and feeling much better, but I still havent been cleared for working out.
This whole experience has really shaken my confidence in losing weight. I feel like I've undone all the good I've been doing and its so hard to get back to where I was. Now instead of working out on my days off Im gonna be car shopping, and I know thats not a forever thing but its still so frustrating. In the past, when things got stressful I would always quit. So now my goal is to get back on track with just as much fire as before. I hope I can.